tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-86740097049264234072011-07-08T08:42:34.779-07:00this is wad i saidnoreply@blogger.comBlogger2501100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8674009704926423407.post-87324856006857360952011-03-18T20:38:00.000-07:002011-03-18T20:42:36.242-07:00has anyone ever wondered....<div><br /></div><div>Why emo kids like standing in the rain?</div><div>its not just cause no one will notice their tears...</div><div>its just to lie to themselves...</div><div>that there's the sky crying for them</div><div><br /></div><div>Why emo kids cut themselves?</div><div>Its not just they wanna hurt themselves...</div><div>its cause they have got no idea how to express their pain...</div><div>and that blood is what they show....</div><div><br /></div><div>Why I like the rain so much?</div><div>Cause its cold...</div><div>like how reality really is....</div><div><br /></div><div>Why do I like the cold?</div><div>Its so that i can experience death....</div><div><br /></div><div>why death?</div><div>Cause I'm a Runner,</div><div>one who just runs from his problems....</div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div>1mp3rf3t10n</div><div>I just wanna run. Run as far as I can.</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8674009704926423407-8732485600685736095?l=dis1smahhheart4u.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>this is wad i saidnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8674009704926423407.post-40849892563652876912011-02-20T02:36:00.000-08:002011-02-20T02:38:57.411-08:00Well, today was fun!!!!<br /><br />Paintball was awesome!!!!!<br /><br />got 5 visible shots left on my body~~~<br /><br /><br />hahha~~~~<br /><br />but that's not the point....<br /><br />the point of today....<br /><br />was when i was taking a puff.....<br /><br /><br /><br />i was wondering....<br /><br />this saddness that calls within me every time i smoke.....<br /><br /><br />i dunno how to feel actually......<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />1mp3rf3t10n<br />Why, does it hurt when I smoke now?<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8674009704926423407-4084989256365287691?l=dis1smahhheart4u.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>this is wad i saidnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8674009704926423407.post-52491100885550080612011-02-18T16:09:00.000-08:002011-02-18T16:12:21.961-08:00I'm currently trying out things with my hair...<br />I've done the forbbiden. I'VE HIGHLIGHTED MY HAIR!!!!! O.O<br /><br />XD<br />Was supposed to be Ash Brown....Turns out to be juz plain BROWN. O.O<br /><br />LOL......<br /><br />Anyways....<br /><br />Is a stalker here???? HAHAHA!!!!!! Let juz hope she isn't XDXD<br /><br />this blog is coming to the 4th years. ^^<br /><br />HAHAHA!!!! Congratz and thanks alot to this blog.....<br /><br />i've realised in the past that i rant alot......<br />Am i still doing the same??? o.o<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />1mp3rf3t10n<br />Do not ever let your loved ones go.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8674009704926423407-5249110088555008061?l=dis1smahhheart4u.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>this is wad i saidnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8674009704926423407.post-10835741551079106262011-02-16T02:45:00.001-08:002011-02-16T02:47:41.061-08:00Lucky....<br /><br />Lucky I'm in love with my best friend...<br />WHICH I'M NOT!!!!!<br /><br />HAHAHAHA!<br />well.....i'm really glad at least someone is looking at this old blog<br /><br />haha! hey blog, you're turning 4 years old now......<br /><br />thx....for being here with me eh???<br />haha!!!!<br /><br />and thx to you too.....<br />for being with me all these while....<br />but still....<br />my clouds would take a while to disappear......<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />1mp3rf3t10n<br />My rain.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8674009704926423407-1083574155107910626?l=dis1smahhheart4u.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>this is wad i saidnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8674009704926423407.post-78865548427759834612011-02-15T02:07:00.000-08:002011-02-15T02:09:52.231-08:00AND ITS BEEN SO LONG SINCE I LAST CAME HERE!!!!<br /><br />XDXD<br /><br />but alot has happened huh....<br /><br />1. (PSST)<br />2. (Psst)<br />3. (psst)<br /><br />o.O what? why all psst?<br />its juz that...its somethings that cant be said here....<br /><br />its the www afterall yea?<br /><br />HAHA!!!!!<br /><br />but lets juz hope....<br /><br />this new start would be nice eh???<br /><br />^^ I'm looking brighter now.... I THINK?!<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />1mp3rf3t10n<br />A new start, will it work out?<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8674009704926423407-7886554842775983461?l=dis1smahhheart4u.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>this is wad i saidnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8674009704926423407.post-91288331728923398482010-02-28T01:53:00.000-08:002010-02-28T01:55:59.782-08:00@w@<br /><br />haha!!!!! SPAM SMILIES!!!!!!!<br /><br />>w<<br />>.<<br />o.O?<br />=D<br />-.-<br />-_-'''<br />=[--]<br />XD<br /><br />yawnz...<br /><br />16 liao!!! woots!!!<br /><br />this blog is 3 yrs old!!!!!!<br /><br />gonna sign off now!!!!<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />1mp3rf3t10n<br />16. And 19 years to go<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8674009704926423407-9128833172892339848?l=dis1smahhheart4u.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>this is wad i saidnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8674009704926423407.post-28292557950370894762010-02-06T02:46:00.000-08:002010-02-06T02:49:21.816-08:00One word surrounds me like no one's business....<br /><br />i'm starting to hate the word death...<br /><br />no one should die....<br />well....no one but me...<br /><br />so why arent u claiming my fucked life?<br />claiming the lives of others aint great Death, you're juz ruining them...<br />they are not at their highest....<br /><br />sigh....kill me....<br /><br />and...yea....why everything is so bad????<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />1mp3rf3t10n<br />Death.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8674009704926423407-2829255795037089476?l=dis1smahhheart4u.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>this is wad i saidnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8674009704926423407.post-78209927729193608182010-01-02T06:22:00.000-08:002010-01-02T06:26:21.757-08:00THIS WILL BE THE 1ST POST OF 2010!!!!<br /><br />hm...2010....<br />there's gonna be alot of things on...dun u tink so?<br />HAHA<br /><br />YOG<br />'O's<br />hm....etc.<br />i'll put more when i remember XD<br /><br />lets juz hope its a great new beginning....<br /><br />BBUT THE TRIP TO SCH!!!<br />ITS UP TO...1 and a half hour journey IF IT TAKES TOO LONG!!!! T.T<br /><br />sigh....<br /><br />lets see...what else...<br /><br />oh yea...<br /><br />i realised that if i really REALLY lose this time to love...<br />i'm gonna collapse....<br />that's for sure.....<br />coz...<br /><br />i dunno....<br />i'm beginning to doubt the 'happiness' in such things.....<br />i cant find any in them anymore...<br /><br />=.=<br />maybe its juz me....<br /><br />may 1mp3rf3t10n live on!<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />1mp3rf3t10n<br />The 1st post of the new year, 2010<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8674009704926423407-7820992772919360818?l=dis1smahhheart4u.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>this is wad i saidnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8674009704926423407.post-88404854118034801202009-12-31T07:00:00.000-08:002009-12-31T07:05:08.068-08:00what...is wrong with my plans?<br /><br />i dunno....is there sth really wrong???<br /><br />first....it was juz dinner with Ruth....and all....but....she nvr turned up? did she? i waited 7 hrs for that....endured the long wait....<br />but....it screwed up...with her without appearing....<br /><br />then...it was 2dae...i was suppose to meet amander at 12....and yea...well...she couldn't wake up....<br />it was juz a sit at ECP...gazing the sunset....<br />i know u prefer moon...but....night...its sth i cant do YET...so i thought...suset would be good enough....<br />but...heys..i cant blame u....u slpt late... so yea...4given...<br /><br />everyone is 4give in the end...i nvr get angry....<br />but i do get the disappointment...and loneliness...<br />that's all....<br /><br />maybe someday...<br />my romantic plans can (HOPEFULLY!) work out....<br /><br />lets juz hope its within 19 yrs....<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />1mp3rf3t10n<br />Romantic plans.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8674009704926423407-8840485411803480120?l=dis1smahhheart4u.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>this is wad i saidnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8674009704926423407.post-67357140555523930672009-12-28T15:48:00.000-08:002009-12-28T15:52:53.250-08:00A night... A full moon....Darkness Sprinkled by small bright shinning stars~<br />We are there...juz by the beach....watchin the full moon...Moonlighting.... eating stuff from plates laid out on the mat....drinking champagne by a champagne flute....<br />ahh....wont that be soo romantic?<br /><br />FUCK<br /><br />NTH EVER WORKS OUT IN THE WORLD...DOES IT????<br /><br />zzz....let me fall in to an endless slp....escape this freakin world...<br /><br />world of evil...unfairness....<br /><br />if only the world was a naive one....<br /><br />wont the world be so much better???<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />1mp3rf3t10n<br />Nothin ever works out, does it?<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8674009704926423407-6735714055552393067?l=dis1smahhheart4u.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>this is wad i saidnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8674009704926423407.post-61838029653021279552009-12-27T21:26:00.000-08:002009-12-27T21:28:47.808-08:00o.0<br />0.o<br />o.o<br />0.0<br />>w<<br />:D<br />D:<br />T.T<br />:]<br />>:[<br />D:<<br /><br />sigh....<br />smilies...anyone???<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />1mp3rf3t10n<br />Smiles.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8674009704926423407-6183802965302127955?l=dis1smahhheart4u.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>this is wad i saidnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8674009704926423407.post-49256123174958886642009-12-18T22:17:00.000-08:002009-12-18T22:23:54.768-08:00NEW SKIN! (AGAIN!)<br /><br />my mouse script finally!!!!<br />Its that...Blue dot thingy that follows ur mouse<br /><br />haha...wanted to use in the previous skins...<br /><br />but realised it always cant...no idea why...O.O<br /><br />haha....<br /><br />anyways...hope all like it!!!<br /><br />lonely guy in the rain....<br /><br />cold...<br /><br />HAHA!!!<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />1mp3rf3t10n<br />Water is wet. But it hurts somehow.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8674009704926423407-4925612317495888664?l=dis1smahhheart4u.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>this is wad i saidnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8674009704926423407.post-68911492138796123422009-12-17T06:32:00.000-08:002009-12-17T06:36:11.981-08:00sigh....<br /><br />4gting stuff<br />has nvr been so tough...<br /><br />sigh...<br /><br />i'm...so tired.....<br /><br />lets end this quick...shall we?<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />1mp3rf3t10n<br />Quick.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8674009704926423407-6891149213879612342?l=dis1smahhheart4u.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>this is wad i saidnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8674009704926423407.post-69282813695159979502009-12-14T17:41:00.000-08:002009-12-14T17:43:23.813-08:00its nearly a week now....<br /><br />since i broke up with her....<br /><br />i dunno why...<br /><br />i still do look at our chats...<br /><br />2mths was pretty short...<br /><br /><table cellspacing="0"><tbody><tr> <th><span class="time">(12:21 AM)</span> <span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(144, 144, 144); background-color: rgb(0, 0, 0);">ジ</span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(148, 148, 148); background-color: rgb(10, 0, 0);">ョ</span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(151, 151, 151); background-color: rgb(20, 0, 0);">セ</span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(155, 155, 155); background-color: rgb(29, 0, 0);">フ</span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(158, 158, 158); background-color: rgb(39, 0, 0);">.</span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(162, 162, 162); background-color: rgb(49, 0, 0);">.</span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(165, 165, 165); background-color: rgb(59, 0, 0);">.</span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(169, 169, 169); background-color: rgb(69, 0, 0);">.</span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(172, 172, 172); background-color: rgb(78, 0, 0);">g</span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(175, 175, 175); background-color: rgb(88, 0, 0);">i</span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(179, 179, 179); background-color: rgb(98, 0, 0);">v</span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(182, 182, 182); background-color: rgb(108, 0, 0);">e</span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(186, 186, 186); background-color: rgb(118, 0, 0);"> </span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(189, 189, 189); background-color: rgb(128, 0, 0);">m</span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(193, 193, 193); background-color: rgb(137, 0, 0);">e</span>:</th> <td style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(0, 0, 128); font-style: italic; font-family: 'Century Schoolbook';">dar....</td></tr> <tr> <th><span class="time">(12:21 AM)</span> I LOVE YOU I LOV:</th> <td style="color: rgb(128, 0, 128); font-family: 'Arial';">making my heart pain</td></tr> <tr> <th><span class="time">(12:21 AM)</span> <span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(144, 144, 144); background-color: rgb(0, 0, 0);">ジ</span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(148, 148, 148); background-color: rgb(10, 0, 0);">ョ</span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(151, 151, 151); background-color: rgb(20, 0, 0);">セ</span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(155, 155, 155); background-color: rgb(29, 0, 0);">フ</span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(158, 158, 158); background-color: rgb(39, 0, 0);">.</span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(162, 162, 162); background-color: rgb(49, 0, 0);">.</span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(165, 165, 165); background-color: rgb(59, 0, 0);">.</span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(169, 169, 169); background-color: rgb(69, 0, 0);">.</span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(172, 172, 172); background-color: rgb(78, 0, 0);">g</span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(175, 175, 175); background-color: rgb(88, 0, 0);">i</span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(179, 179, 179); background-color: rgb(98, 0, 0);">v</span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(182, 182, 182); background-color: rgb(108, 0, 0);">e</span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(186, 186, 186); background-color: rgb(118, 0, 0);"> </span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(189, 189, 189); background-color: rgb(128, 0, 0);">m</span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(193, 193, 193); background-color: rgb(137, 0, 0);">e</span>:</th> <td style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(0, 0, 128); font-style: italic; font-family: 'Century Schoolbook';">u noe he likes u?</td></tr> <tr> <th><span class="time">(12:21 AM)</span> I LOVE YOU I LOV:</th> <td style="color: rgb(128, 0, 128); font-family: 'Arial';">tonight i no need sleep le <img alt=":-O" src="./Images/MsgPlus_Img0719.png" /><br />ya</td></tr> <tr> <th><span class="time">(12:21 AM)</span> <span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(144, 144, 144); background-color: rgb(0, 0, 0);">ジ</span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(148, 148, 148); background-color: rgb(10, 0, 0);">ョ</span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(151, 151, 151); background-color: rgb(20, 0, 0);">セ</span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(155, 155, 155); background-color: rgb(29, 0, 0);">フ</span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(158, 158, 158); background-color: rgb(39, 0, 0);">.</span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(162, 162, 162); background-color: rgb(49, 0, 0);">.</span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(165, 165, 165); background-color: rgb(59, 0, 0);">.</span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(169, 169, 169); background-color: rgb(69, 0, 0);">.</span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(172, 172, 172); background-color: rgb(78, 0, 0);">g</span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(175, 175, 175); background-color: rgb(88, 0, 0);">i</span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(179, 179, 179); background-color: rgb(98, 0, 0);">v</span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(182, 182, 182); background-color: rgb(108, 0, 0);">e</span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(186, 186, 186); background-color: rgb(118, 0, 0);"> </span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(189, 189, 189); background-color: rgb(128, 0, 0);">m</span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(193, 193, 193); background-color: rgb(137, 0, 0);">e</span>:</th> <td style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(0, 0, 128); font-style: italic; font-family: 'Century Schoolbook';">he noes u like him?<br />to say the truth...<br />i was juz toying with u</td></tr> <tr> <th><span class="time">(12:22 AM)</span> <span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(144, 144, 144); background-color: rgb(0, 0, 0);">ジ</span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(148, 148, 148); background-color: rgb(10, 0, 0);">ョ</span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(151, 151, 151); background-color: rgb(20, 0, 0);">セ</span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(155, 155, 155); background-color: rgb(29, 0, 0);">フ</span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(158, 158, 158); background-color: rgb(39, 0, 0);">.</span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(162, 162, 162); background-color: rgb(49, 0, 0);">.</span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(165, 165, 165); background-color: rgb(59, 0, 0);">.</span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(169, 169, 169); background-color: rgb(69, 0, 0);">.</span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(172, 172, 172); background-color: rgb(78, 0, 0);">g</span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(175, 175, 175); background-color: rgb(88, 0, 0);">i</span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(179, 179, 179); background-color: rgb(98, 0, 0);">v</span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(182, 182, 182); background-color: rgb(108, 0, 0);">e</span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(186, 186, 186); background-color: rgb(118, 0, 0);"> </span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(189, 189, 189); background-color: rgb(128, 0, 0);">m</span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(193, 193, 193); background-color: rgb(137, 0, 0);">e</span>:</th> <td style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(0, 0, 128); font-style: italic; font-family: 'Century Schoolbook';">i didnt really like u</td></tr> <tr> <th><span class="time">(12:22 AM)</span> I LOVE YOU I LOV:</th> <td style="color: rgb(128, 0, 128); font-family: 'Arial';">i know that you dun love me at all<br />i knew it</td></tr> <tr> <th><span class="time">(12:22 AM)</span> <span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(144, 144, 144); background-color: rgb(0, 0, 0);">ジ</span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(148, 148, 148); background-color: rgb(10, 0, 0);">ョ</span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(151, 151, 151); background-color: rgb(20, 0, 0);">セ</span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(155, 155, 155); background-color: rgb(29, 0, 0);">フ</span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(158, 158, 158); background-color: rgb(39, 0, 0);">.</span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(162, 162, 162); background-color: rgb(49, 0, 0);">.</span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(165, 165, 165); background-color: rgb(59, 0, 0);">.</span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(169, 169, 169); background-color: rgb(69, 0, 0);">.</span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(172, 172, 172); background-color: rgb(78, 0, 0);">g</span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(175, 175, 175); background-color: rgb(88, 0, 0);">i</span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(179, 179, 179); background-color: rgb(98, 0, 0);">v</span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(182, 182, 182); background-color: rgb(108, 0, 0);">e</span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(186, 186, 186); background-color: rgb(118, 0, 0);"> </span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(189, 189, 189); background-color: rgb(128, 0, 0);">m</span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(193, 193, 193); background-color: rgb(137, 0, 0);">e</span>:</th> <td style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(0, 0, 128); font-style: italic; font-family: 'Century Schoolbook';">then?<br />why still be with me?</td></tr> <tr> <th><span class="time">(12:22 AM)</span> I LOVE YOU I LOV:</th> <td style="color: rgb(128, 0, 128); font-family: 'Arial';">i dunno...</td></tr> <tr> <th><span class="time">(12:22 AM)</span> <span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(144, 144, 144); background-color: rgb(0, 0, 0);">ジ</span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(148, 148, 148); background-color: rgb(10, 0, 0);">ョ</span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(151, 151, 151); background-color: rgb(20, 0, 0);">セ</span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(155, 155, 155); background-color: rgb(29, 0, 0);">フ</span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(158, 158, 158); background-color: rgb(39, 0, 0);">.</span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(162, 162, 162); background-color: rgb(49, 0, 0);">.</span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(165, 165, 165); background-color: rgb(59, 0, 0);">.</span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(169, 169, 169); background-color: rgb(69, 0, 0);">.</span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(172, 172, 172); background-color: rgb(78, 0, 0);">g</span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(175, 175, 175); background-color: rgb(88, 0, 0);">i</span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(179, 179, 179); background-color: rgb(98, 0, 0);">v</span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(182, 182, 182); background-color: rgb(108, 0, 0);">e</span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(186, 186, 186); background-color: rgb(118, 0, 0);"> </span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(189, 189, 189); background-color: rgb(128, 0, 0);">m</span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(193, 193, 193); background-color: rgb(137, 0, 0);">e</span>:</th> <td style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(0, 0, 128); font-style: italic; font-family: 'Century Schoolbook';">dar...<br />break up wtih me..<br />zihao can giv u alot more happiness then i can</td></tr> <tr> <th><span class="time">(12:23 AM)</span> I LOVE YOU I LOV:</th> <td style="color: rgb(128, 0, 128); font-family: 'Arial';">i know the devil thing was a lie too</td></tr> <tr> <th><span class="time">(12:23 AM)</span> <span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(144, 144, 144); background-color: rgb(0, 0, 0);">ジ</span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(148, 148, 148); background-color: rgb(10, 0, 0);">ョ</span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(151, 151, 151); background-color: rgb(20, 0, 0);">セ</span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(155, 155, 155); background-color: rgb(29, 0, 0);">フ</span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(158, 158, 158); background-color: rgb(39, 0, 0);">.</span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(162, 162, 162); background-color: rgb(49, 0, 0);">.</span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(165, 165, 165); background-color: rgb(59, 0, 0);">.</span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(169, 169, 169); background-color: rgb(69, 0, 0);">.</span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(172, 172, 172); background-color: rgb(78, 0, 0);">g</span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(175, 175, 175); background-color: rgb(88, 0, 0);">i</span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(179, 179, 179); background-color: rgb(98, 0, 0);">v</span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(182, 182, 182); background-color: rgb(108, 0, 0);">e</span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(186, 186, 186); background-color: rgb(118, 0, 0);"> </span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(189, 189, 189); background-color: rgb(128, 0, 0);">m</span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(193, 193, 193); background-color: rgb(137, 0, 0);">e</span>:</th> <td style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(0, 0, 128); font-style: italic; font-family: 'Century Schoolbook';">it was..<br />it was all juz to play with u...</td></tr> <tr> <th><span class="time">(12:24 AM)</span> I LOVE YOU I LOV:</th> <td style="color: rgb(128, 0, 128); font-family: 'Arial';">=]<br /></td></tr></tbody></table><br />guess this would be the most hurtful lie i ever said...<br /><br />juz a question...<br /><br />why does it hurt all so bad???<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />1mp3rf3t10n<br />Lies.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8674009704926423407-6928281369515997950?l=dis1smahhheart4u.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>this is wad i saidnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8674009704926423407.post-33328465076289005242009-12-13T03:02:00.001-08:002009-12-13T03:24:43.882-08:00i regret....telling a big lie...<br /><br />this lie....<br /><br />was a lie...to get her...<br />to be with a better guy...<br /><br />but in order to do so....<br /><br />she left me...<br /><br />i noe its for the best....<br /><br />but why does it hurt???<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />1mp3rf3t10n<br />Hurting, regretting.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8674009704926423407-3332846507628900524?l=dis1smahhheart4u.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>this is wad i saidnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8674009704926423407.post-41061352397123976542009-11-19T14:46:00.000-08:002009-11-19T14:50:50.409-08:00wwheeee.....<br /><br />i woke up at 2 am in the morn 2dae!!!!<br /><br />and i slp no wink man....that's like.....tount of 4 and a half hours b4 coming here...<br /><br />zzzz.....<br /><br />wont say wtf i was doing......<br /><br />LALALALA~~~~<br /><br />i'm looking at girls in a very wrong perspective....<br />kept thinking they were....TOYS?!<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />1mp3rf3t10n<br />2a.m.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8674009704926423407-4106135239712397654?l=dis1smahhheart4u.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>this is wad i saidnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8674009704926423407.post-24123018835830356312009-11-17T15:22:00.000-08:002009-11-17T15:24:43.172-08:00THIS BLOG IS DYIN!!!!<br /><br />no!!!!...REVIVE DAMN IT!!!! RRREEEVVIIIIVVEE~~~~<br /><br />lalala~<br /><br />alot of posting in our blog...and i'm gonna chiong maple....say as u like....LAME LALALA~~~i aint caring....its thanks to that LAME game i got a gf....XD<br />also....i'm real REAL bored of all that stupid facebook games.....ZZZ<br /><br />lalalala~~~~<br />suppose to be doing amaths.....<br />again..LAZY<br /><br />LALALALA~~~~<br />TRALALALALA~~~~<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />1mp3rf3t10n<br />CAPTAIN UNDERPANTS!<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8674009704926423407-2412301883583035631?l=dis1smahhheart4u.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>this is wad i saidnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8674009704926423407.post-11101054021814841742009-11-03T23:04:00.000-08:002009-11-03T23:06:14.722-08:00i'll srry for disturbing u guys...<br /><br />i juz didnt like to see me be the only one standing tin this world anymore...<br /><br />zzzz...<br /><br />anyways....a sudden post here....<br /><br /><br /><br /><br />1mp3rf3t10n<br />Suddens.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8674009704926423407-1110105402181484174?l=dis1smahhheart4u.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>this is wad i saidnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8674009704926423407.post-10437854001561649302009-10-25T06:51:00.000-07:002009-10-25T06:53:03.742-07:00why....<br /><br />why...<br /><br />WHY AM I STILL THE SAME?!<br /><br />damn it...<br /><br />i wanna beat myself up soo much.....<br /><br />i'm freaking....RETARDED!!!!!<br /><br />stupid...<br /><br />moronic...<br /><br />idiotic...<br /><br />pathetic....<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />1mp3rf3t10n<br />Wanna die.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8674009704926423407-1043785400156164930?l=dis1smahhheart4u.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>this is wad i saidnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8674009704926423407.post-39735344974164460262009-10-18T16:59:00.000-07:002009-10-18T17:06:59.654-07:00......zzz......<br /><br />i'm hoping dar wouldn't see this.....<br /><br />i nid to type this out.....<br /><br />ok....this morning....i was thinking about the rings still attached to my wallet....<br /><br />and then....i was wondering...if dar saw the rings one day we go out....and ask me to throw into the sea....<br /><br />WOULD I DO IT?!...i'm still figuring out the question.....<br /><br />er....this is not to say that i dun love her...<br /><br />I'M LOVING WANYING FOREVER FROM NOW ON AND ON!!!! NO DOUBTS NO SECOND THOUGHTS!!!!!<br /><br />haha....but anyways...i'm missing her lots....sigh....<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />1mp3rf3t10n<br />What's in my mind now? Her...or Her?<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8674009704926423407-3973534497416446026?l=dis1smahhheart4u.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>this is wad i saidnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8674009704926423407.post-78756970581036279452009-10-17T17:54:00.000-07:002009-10-17T17:59:04.633-07:00whheee....<br />lalala~~~<br /><br />haha... i made a new combine blog....with someone....<br />so announce it here first....<br /><br />anyways....<br />this blog would still be here....so ppl following this blog......its still surviving...DUN WRRY!!!!<br /><br />XD<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />1mp3rf3t10n<br />Another new episode.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8674009704926423407-7875697058103627945?l=dis1smahhheart4u.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>this is wad i saidnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8674009704926423407.post-40620419780950645822009-10-15T02:27:00.000-07:002009-10-15T02:36:16.729-07:00signaling: as of 2dae...Joseph Lee is freed from sec3 exams....<br /><br />bt...he's still hell as worried....<br />mid year was done fucking badly.... so i MAY not be promoted...i hoping against many odds...<br /><br />and also.... hav been up to do the box...so yea...its only spray painted finish..... freak....why must she go overseas.... it makes me wanna procrastinate more.....<br /><br />sigh..... now....i'm wondering about my bleak future.... i'm wondering wat's gonna happen from here on.... wat's gonna happen once this is over....<br />and also....i've been tinking more of u....<br /><br />i realised that during exams....i had to take out my wallet so i can stop thinking bout u....(first few papers i didn't do so...and u keep popping up...so couldnt concentrate....dun apologise... not ur fault...its mine that i cant get over you....that's if u see this post.....)<br /><br />also....on trips back home... i tink how much i've changed...<br />suddenly, i've gotten a specs fetish...and its weird....i USED to hate girl's hu wear specs...now....im juz loving them....<br />maybe in love...senses do change....<br /><br />so since i've been tinking of u.... i kept wondering to ur blog....hoping that u updated...but yea...i din...<br />and 2dae? i decided to pop in to ur qt....<br />and...<br /><br />i realised...that u hurt soo much.....and that u are saying that lucifer's hurting u alot....<br /><br />maybe its true..... maybe i shouldnt approach u anymore...<br />if its me that's causing the hurt...im srry.... if u ever think that lucifer's hurting u....i'm srry....<br />whatever happens....i dun wan anything bad to happen to u....<br />ur happiness has been made 1st priority to me....no matter wat.....<br />even if it means having to let go for life.....<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />1mp3rf3t10n<br />I'm back, but might be gone.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8674009704926423407-4062041978095064582?l=dis1smahhheart4u.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>this is wad i saidnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8674009704926423407.post-57473365535736977062009-10-07T00:54:00.001-07:002009-10-07T01:12:50.738-07:00dunno how...dunno why....<br /><br />but i'm hooked on Jazz now....the deep sound of a sax.....the soothing melody....<br /><br />well...some pplz juz mistake jazz as a emo song....but heys...its real relaxing.....<br /><br />haha....so yea....hooked on Jazz...Still loving Pop of all kinds and yea....<br /><br />and yea...still loving you.....<br /><br />i dun tink i'll ever giv you up....until you got your prince charming......that's all i'll say....coz...what i feel...it can nvr be put in words....<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />1mp3rf3t10n<br />Jazz.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8674009704926423407-5747336553573697706?l=dis1smahhheart4u.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>this is wad i saidnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8674009704926423407.post-53087422869475180232009-10-03T05:17:00.001-07:002009-10-03T08:12:06.515-07:00ITS OFFICIAL...<br />I'M RUNNING LOW ON IDEAS FOR MY TITLES!!!!!!<br /><br />hahaha<br />randomness ftw....<br /><br />hehehe.....<br />i still haven't start on the box....<br /><br />damn....i really nid a test run first.....<br /><br />i want this to be the best gift i can make....<br />sigh....<br /><br />but i nid spray paint....<br />and i'm low on cash.....<br />ahhh......<br /><br />fishing line...where are you....<br /><br />omg.....my compo is not done.....<br /><br /><br /><br />ARGHH!!!!!!!<br /><br /><br />update at 11.06pm<br /><br />Macdonals was saddup....<br /><br /><br /><br />1mp3rf3t10n<br />THE BOX!!!!!<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8674009704926423407-5308742286947518023?l=dis1smahhheart4u.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>this is wad i saidnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8674009704926423407.post-86317510947207291392009-10-02T04:39:00.000-07:002009-10-02T04:46:57.474-07:00LOL...<br /><br />so another mini drama has started between 2 you-know-who...(david....its not the One Who Should Not Be Smelled)<br /><br />zzz.....and one is in a sickbed.... sniffing away wif flu AND tears...<br /><br />then it comes back to me....<br /><br />was this how it was like for my previous relationships????<br />sigh.... Remorse? yea....loads....<br /><br />so that's why i'm gonna make sure... the next one...would be the one i TRULY love...and hold her dear...<br /><br />yawnz....<br /><br />so lets see....study....study....<br />OH YEA... EXAMS AT 7/10/09<br />End at 15/10/09....<br /><br />so yea.... actually, some how...i suddenly got this big BIG urge to study like crazy....<br /><br />and actually....<br />i'm fearing i might hav to retain.....<br />FEARING till it can....scare me VERY badly.....<br />if i retain....then yea...i would go nuts.....<br />and maybe....i'll really blame all those around me.....<br />but ultimately...its my responsibility...<br />coz i lazed around tooo much.....<br /><br />reminder...DUN BLAME OTHERS FOR THIS MATTER....<br /><br />actually....i've TRIED not to blame others OUTWARDLY...<br />till they push me to breaking point....<br />or i'm juz not in the mood.....<br /><br />my future somehow seems...bleak....<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />1mp3rf3t10n<br />Its a stressful life for students these days. And even worse for their parents.<br />Ignorance is truly bliss.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8674009704926423407-8631751094720729139?l=dis1smahhheart4u.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>this is wad i saidnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8674009704926423407.post-43343799920376256882009-09-29T07:10:00.000-07:002009-09-29T07:13:37.134-07:00these days....<br /><br />i've been planning another one of the 'trick' items i'm doing.....<br /><br />this time....its a box....<br /><br />to who..<br />whom...<br />what's gonna be inside<br />what's outside.....<br />what for.....<br /><br />i wont say.....juz leave all to guess...<br /><br />i've started DOING alrdy.....<br /><br />so lets hope it comes out nicely.....<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />1mp3rf3t10n<br />And from here, we plan.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8674009704926423407-4334379992037625688?l=dis1smahhheart4u.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>this is wad i saidnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8674009704926423407.post-12186740684493103072009-09-28T02:23:00.000-07:002009-09-28T02:38:00.466-07:00you know..... i am a really troubled boy.... juz looking for a way...to escape the reality or the pain from this hellish world....from this lonely place that i tink only i live....<br /><br />and 2dae....i think i tasted heaven that was on earth.....<br /><br />i was blinded.... by jealousy...hate....and above all.... ignorance....<br /><br />i was jealous of all hu has a friend....a true friend somehow he/she can trust..... but i realised...the ppl i can trust is juz by my side....Nicholas,Syafiq,Scott,Rytha,Caroline,Evangeline and lastly,Ruth.<br /><br />why do i put Ruth the last? her qt....<br /><br />she might not realise it....but her qt let me hav peace....her qt tells me what really can help.... and maybe....i should start my own....but for now....i'll juz learn from her....<br /><br />always everyday, my first few webs are....<br />Facebook then Youtube then my blog then her blog..and lastly, her qt blog.....<br /><br />Ruth, i owe alot to you.... i dunno if you realise it anot....but heys....for all these you've done unknowingly, you deserve to be rewarded...by both me and God.....<br /><br />You've kept your faith, and this faith brought on to enlightenment for me....<br />maybe enlightenment is a big word....but heys, it works for me.....<br /><br />i dunno what God's gift is gonna be....but i wish he'll protect you.... from all that is evil and impure...you truly deserve such protection with all that you hav done.....<br /><br />my gift? it'll come in a form of a box....haha....i let your imagination run wild as you wonder wat is it....in time...it'll come.....<br /><br />i dunno why i'm so protected....what hav i done....do this such a gift from God? i question myself day and night....<br /><br />maybe, He truly is a person who forgives one and all.... no discrimination from him at all....Fairness....<br /><br />i noe there is that glimer of hope, that small chance that He has given me to change....<br />its just me, i'm afraid to change....i've always been afraid to....admit my deepest wrongs.....<br />i nid strength.....<br />if i cant get the strength, let me be corrupt...and let me be brought to hell.....<br />i'll do what i can to help those hu ask....<br />but i dun tink, i deserve any good.....<br /><br />i've failed to change and to admit my wrongs.....<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />1mp3rf3t10n<br />Ruth, I thank you for all that you've done. I don't think I can stop thanking you. (Familar?)<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8674009704926423407-1218674068449310307?l=dis1smahhheart4u.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>this is wad i saidnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8674009704926423407.post-43522591550800743382009-09-26T03:37:00.000-07:002009-09-26T03:50:48.624-07:00hmm....i was reading alot of cocktail recipes lately....<br />so i decided to name a few of my friends by the names of cocktails<br />hopefully, it would be their first.....<br />except syafiq of course...urs would be a mocktail...<br /><br />Rytha Lew: Sea Breeze<br />Reason: Sweet.<br /><br />Sean Tan: Bloody Mary (infusion type)<br />Reason: Spicy.<br /><br />Scott Lim: Apple/Lime Vodka<br />Not really a cocktail. But yea...i can make it into a Martini<br />Reason: Zesty<br /><br />Evangeline: Champagne Cocktail<br />Reason: Sparkly... meaning very hype!<br /><br />Ruth: Chocolate Martini<br />Reason: Bittersweet.<br /><br />Irfan Syafiq: Sea Breeze (mocktail type)<br />Reason: Sweet<br />if u wan, i add club soda to it for your 'bubbly' nature.meanin tend to fight<br /><br />Caroline: Silver Bullet<br />Reason: Never misses the mark<br />By the way, yours is special. your cocktail is a 'shot' cocktail. Strong and simple<br /><br />yea....basically tat..... if you guys wonder what i would call myself, i'll be the first cocktail i wish to mix and drink<br /><br />Joseph Lee: Green Jade Blossom<br />well....the thing is....<br />the Green Jade Blossom is a drink that nids alot of infused liqour. thus, i wish to experiment on myself first. and also, the green hue it gives kinda reminds me, i'm a person easily jealous.<br /><br />if you guys wonder what infused liqour you nid....they are<br />Cucumber Vodka<br />Green Tea Vodka<br />Lime Vodka<br /><br />that's why i wish to make it mine first....<br />to say the truth, Ruth's cocktail is another that has a TINY WINY more infused liqour<br /><br />Her Chocolate Martini needs,<br />Chocolate and Vanilla Vodka<br /><br />you guys will also be thinking 'why so much vodka?'<br />Vodka is a simple drink, easily flavoured.... thus... i think its my no.1 liqour.....<br /><br />if you guys got any request on 'Cocktail labelling' post on my cbox....<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />1mp3rf3t10n<br />P.S.<br />Get 8 bottles of Vodka by 18 years old.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8674009704926423407-4352259155080074338?l=dis1smahhheart4u.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>this is wad i saidnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8674009704926423407.post-75957695814504664482009-09-24T05:28:00.000-07:002009-09-26T03:51:42.184-07:00why.....why did i hesitate???<br /><br />i wanted to call u yesterday....wish u luck for ur papers.....<br />why couldnt i pick up the courage....call u and say...'Good luck!'<br /><br />i'm so stupid.....and 2dae...i decided to call.....ur mom said ur phone confiscated....i feel so stupid....why....why didnt i???<br /><br />2dae went to eat subway....tried subway melt SALAD....awesome.....the sauces went well.....all was good for 2dae...except for the screaming from miss choy...and the calling to u.....<br /><br />oh yea...talking about miss choy....<br />she asked some questions....had to bite my lip HARD so as not to argue wif her.....<br />'Don't you find yourself hateful?'<br />YEA... I DO..... TAT'S WHY I DONT WANT TO DO WORK....ITS NOT FOR ME ANYWAYS....<br />'Why do you not care about others feelings?'<br />CAUSE THEY NVR DID FOR ME<br />'You shouldn't live on.'(i noe its not like tat...but its the message anyways)<br />YEA....I WISH I COULD DIE.....BUT I'M LIVING...FOR THE PEOPLE WHO WANS ME ALIVE.....I MYSELF WANT TO DIE.....SPEAK TO THEM....NOT ME<br />'Why did you choose this life?'<br />FUCK....IS IT LIKE I WANTED TO BE LIKE THIS????? MY LIFE CHANGED ME FUCKER.....<br /><br />WHO EVER DOESNT <span style="font-size:180%;"><span style="font-style: italic;"><span style="font-weight: bold;">DOESNT</span></span></span> NOE WHAT THE FUCK ITS HAPPENING TO ME.....YOU HAV NO FUCKING RIGHTS TO TELL ME I'M WRONG.....<br />I LIVE THE WAY I WISH MY LIFE TO BE TO THE BEST....<br /><span style="font-size:180%;"><span style="font-style: italic;"><span style="font-weight: bold;">YOU AIN'T GONNA FUCKING GET IN THE WAY.</span></span></span><br /><br />this is speaking to all the mother fuckers who is GONNA get in MY way. or gonna try changing my attitude....<br /><br />here is an advice<br />'<span style="font-style: italic;"><span style="font-weight: bold;">IT AIN'T GONNA GET IN.AND YOU ARE WASTING YOUR FUCKING TIME ON A FUCKING TRASH.GET GOING.'</span></span><span style="font-size:78%;"><br /><br /><span style="font-size:100%;"><span style="font-size:130%;">man....gonna wonder who's gonna read this.....<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />1mp3rf3t10n<br />*knocks knocks*<br />(opens door)<br />Death:'Hi! I'm your new neighbour!'<br />Me:I didn't know I'm in hell.Wait,this is earth isn't it? Ah well. What's the diff. Nice to meet you Death!</span><br /></span></span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8674009704926423407-7595769581450466448?l=dis1smahhheart4u.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>this is wad i saidnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8674009704926423407.post-2335886138754449532009-09-20T08:20:00.000-07:002009-09-20T08:24:07.056-07:00i'm happy for you! really i am....<br />you getting baptized and stuff....<br />its great ur Christian officially....<br /><br />its juz me... i tink... its juz that....<br />i pity myself....<br />i noe i should change so i can be wif you.... but....i dunno if i can do it....<br /><br />but heys....look on the brightest even if its dark right???<br />^^<br /><br />so....even if you DO get over him.... would you even accept me???<br /><br />haix....<br /><br />'O's are coming up alrdy....i noe i'm juz sec 3... but...hav to look forward right???<br />and the course i wan is kinda a far mark......<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />1mp3rf3t10n<br />An imperfect wonder.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8674009704926423407-233588613875444953?l=dis1smahhheart4u.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>this is wad i saidnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8674009704926423407.post-8797598981247246422009-09-16T06:06:00.000-07:002009-09-16T06:18:59.473-07:00.....<br /><br />these days feel.....really really awkward.... its like....being lonely all over again...<br /><br />guess its coz i aint hanging out wif bro so much.....<br /><br />and guess wat....<br /><br />went to drink coffee on my own....and was deeeep in thought again.....<br /><br />u see....i was thinking how everything i wished for.....always ALWAYS has a price.....<br /><br />1)My grades are going up. But....i'm alone coz i do best wen i am on my own....(i am used to this....dunno why)<br />2)I wished for a girlfriend...(sec 2...i got one...aint all tat good looking and caused my friendship)<br /><br />and stuff like tat.....<br /><br />maybe it really is a curse.....<br /><br />sigh....<br /><br />Ruth....i really really wan u to be wif me....<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />1mp3rf3t10n<br />Why?<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8674009704926423407-879759898124724642?l=dis1smahhheart4u.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>this is wad i saidnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8674009704926423407.post-48583546166779500862009-09-15T03:29:00.000-07:002009-09-15T04:22:06.664-07:00so looks like its still the same eh?<br /><br />actually..was thinking things as going home...<br /><br />like....how lucky i am and stuff....<br /><br />lets leave it like this for now....<br /><br />2dae was not really spectacular...<br /><br />but u called back...<br /><br />that's all that's enough to make me smile....<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />1mp3rf3t10n<br />REALLY REALLY SHORT POST.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8674009704926423407-4858354616677950086?l=dis1smahhheart4u.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>this is wad i saidnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8674009704926423407.post-20771518668072352672009-09-12T07:24:00.000-07:002009-09-12T07:43:14.660-07:00lets put a post where i wish to question myself......<br /><br />Q: Do I deserve you?<br /><br />A:________<br /><br />i dun noe the ans....<br /><br />if its a No....i can say a 1001 reasons why no...(maybe alot ALOT more)<br />1. I aint a good kid<br />2.You are too pure<br />3.I aint in your league (you said so urself)<br />4.I don't know you well (you said it urself too)<br />5.We dun see each other often....<br />etc.<br /><br />and if its a Yes<br />well....lets juz say...i can only come up wif 2 reasons<br />1. I TRULY LOVE YOU TO THE HEAVENS AND NO DOUBT ABOUT IT<br />2.Er....Well....<br />i cant tink of a second reason....lets stick wif one now....<br /><br />you said you salute me....<br />for being unable to get over you coz i dun see u often...and that u cant get over a guy u see often...<br /><br />its totally wrong<br />you shouldn't get over the guy...coz u are seeing him...and ur heart is beating for him....u hav been wif him soo long...it should be understandable....<br />but me? we din even make the mark.....we werent even together....and worse...i dun see u often.....yet....i cant get over it....mine is not understandable...<br /><br />my frenz all say i wont get u.....they say we arent made for each other....<br />but i wan u...not to prove they are wrong...but because i truly love u....and no other gals compare....to ur kindness and selflessness....<br />its juz...uniquely u....<br />and coz another point....i like u....for you are weird...<br />dun lose that....its really cool to me....<br /><br />for now...all i can say is this....<br /><br />its nothing much....<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />1mp3rf3t10n<br /> <3<br />Jaymie Cheong Wu Ding<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8674009704926423407-2077151866807235267?l=dis1smahhheart4u.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>this is wad i saidnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8674009704926423407.post-21295670793598929712009-09-10T17:18:00.000-07:002009-09-10T18:08:04.607-07:00LOL..its a wonder how i can still come here to type....<br /><br />first ting off....My Middle and Index fingers are fractured....so yea...i try to type as much as possible...<br /><br />important times...<br />ECP<br />SRC(Singapore Recreational Club)<br /><br />Ecp is where i broke my fingers....went back skate park...did some stunts...then fell wif my fingers out.....NVR DO THAT!!!!<br /><br />SRC is my sis the birthday....so...yea..went to celebrate....bowlin was painful....<br /><br />ok...hand pain liao...cant post....<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />1mp3rf3t10n<br />Still thinking of you.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8674009704926423407-2129567079359892971?l=dis1smahhheart4u.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>this is wad i saidnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8674009704926423407.post-41681366460710096352009-09-09T07:03:00.000-07:002009-09-09T07:05:00.054-07:00sigh.....<br /><br />emo post for now....zzz.....<br /><br />maybe its juz me.....haix....snap out of it!!!<br /><br />sherwins here to stay for the night.....yawnz.....<br /><br />ruth is in my mind to stay for life....<br /><br />post post post...who's readin???<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />1mp3rf3t10n<br />Short post.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8674009704926423407-4168136646071009635?l=dis1smahhheart4u.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>this is wad i saidnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8674009704926423407.post-46968703067213906222009-09-08T04:20:00.000-07:002009-09-08T04:31:44.316-07:002dae has gotta be the best holiday i had....<br /><br />thx to the bros and lil evan and gang!!! YOU GUYS ROCK!!!!!!!!<br /><br />so....start off....<br /><br />couldn't reach Syafiq....but he turned up in the end!<br />waited at Bedok Inter for lil evan and rayner wif cheryl,brian(hope its correct)and Scott....then...took 16.... got to ECP(ICE BOX WAN FREAKIN HEAVY!!!!!!)<br />then decided to eat first....so went mac for breakfast....then played touch rugby first....really really sandy!!!!!! haha....then skipping stones....was about to play soccer, then syaf turned up....played soccer....burried me in sand...was really sick wif wat they did.....XDXD. I HAD FUN ANYWAYS!!!! dodgeball next...USED NEWSPAPER BALL WRAPPED IN TAPE...XD<br /><br />so went wash up....then mac for lunch....AGAIN.....then cheryl went off as we made our way to bicycle shop....first rented mountain bike to get to the skate park....then rented BMX for fun.....HAHAHA....i noe spend alot..... but hells.... once in a while is ok lah..... so did some tricks...fell off as was attempting....so now having friction burn.....and also many MANY other injuries caused by the backwards motion made as u stop ur bike on a ramp.....fell then alot....but was fun through out....<br /><br />returned bikes and went for pool(table pool)... after 1hr or so....went home...haha...basically that.....<br /><br />haha...now hurting alot.....pain....XD<br /><br />but heys...i've suffered worse pain right??? this...nothing....<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />1mp3rf3t10n<br />Was hoping I could have forgotten you by today. I just thought of you more instead.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8674009704926423407-4696870306721390622?l=dis1smahhheart4u.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>this is wad i saidnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8674009704926423407.post-88246774939771254452009-09-07T00:49:00.000-07:002009-09-07T00:52:51.947-07:00.......<br />i really cant 4gt u...can i????<br /><br />i juz get so uncomfortable... wen i tink of u....<br />wen i cant talk to u...<br /><br />when u are in soo much sufferin.....why couldn't i be wif u.....<br />why cant i???<br /><br />WHY AM I SO FREAKING USELESS?????<br /><br />i cant even do anything right....<br /><br /><br />i almost got u....i dunnoe....if it had gone on like that for a mth...i might hav gotten u....<br />why did i ruin it all.... by showin u my other self....<br /><br />y??? y cant i do anything right....<br /><br />i juz hate myself so much...<br /><br />so freakin useless.....<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />1mp3rf3t10n<br />My love for you is so strong, but, is it really impossible???<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8674009704926423407-8824677493977125445?l=dis1smahhheart4u.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>this is wad i saidnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8674009704926423407.post-69339904929479732982009-09-05T08:06:00.000-07:002009-09-05T08:09:46.447-07:00sigh.....<br />dreams went poof.....<br />and wat to do???<br />all i can do now....i juz cry silently....<br /><br />i knew it.... i can nvr get the love of my life....<br /><br />guess i'll hang as long as possible....i tink oni i noe when how long tat's gonna be....<br /><br />but heys.....i gotta look on the brighter side of life right???<br /><br />that's wat u thought me right????haha....<br /><br />i juz hav to get over u...tat's all....<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />1mp3rf3t10n<br />Never gonna give up, till THAT day comes.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8674009704926423407-6933990492947973298?l=dis1smahhheart4u.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>this is wad i saidnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8674009704926423407.post-6280329420066051932009-09-04T05:08:00.000-07:002009-09-04T05:22:31.419-07:00yo all!!! so the last day is here!!! looking forward to the beach party....haha....<br /><br />and 2dae? i met chantal and bro (scott)haha....chantal became darker in color....LOL....its kinda weird to me....XD...<br /><br />and then went home...wanted to skate but grandma home....best dun take out the board.....<br /><br />now....i've been reading this comic book....<br />www.onemanga.com...from this web....<br /><br />i realised, how much it was like...us....<br />and yet...not....<br /><br />if u read it..........i dunno....<br /><br />i dunno if its true....2 u....all i noe its sth similar....yet...not to tat extend....as in...its not that far.....<br />but i noe u feel the same way as her....Aikawa....<br /><br />and i juz want to say.....i wish to protect you....should anything be bad for u be coming straight at you......i wan to be ur human shield.....died for you.....for without you.....life is juz sth i would nvr ever hav thought of continuing.....<br />i dunno if u would ever let me.....<br />i noe its nvr gonna be mutual.... (however its spelled)<br />i lost my chance....i did sth wrong to u.....<br />but...at least....let me protect.....its the least i can do....<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />1mp3rf3t10n<br />Bitter Virgin.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8674009704926423407-628032942006605193?l=dis1smahhheart4u.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>this is wad i saidnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8674009704926423407.post-49512345069978967062009-09-03T05:40:00.000-07:002009-09-03T05:47:02.239-07:00haha....new skin again...<br />was looking for sth like this....and apologies for somethings....bout the blog....<br />you wouldn't see the cursor...srry...couldn't revert it(more like lazy to find the code and revert it XD)<br />then the snow part???? yea...its on purpose...srry if it is irritating....<br /><br />ok...now back to life!!!!<br />skateboarding is fun!!!! though falling hard on the ground elbow and hips first isnt really recommended... hurts alot for a while...<br /><br />then...yea...abit sad about the whole lunch thing being canceled...but YEA!!!! we hav got time ahead...and i did enjoy life on my own....<br /><br />but this crush aint gonna go away tat simply... i still love you lots....<br />Ruth....<br /><br />i noe its all crazy...but heys! i'm used to chasing impossible dreams...<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />1mp3rf3t10n<br />Stars.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8674009704926423407-4951234506997896706?l=dis1smahhheart4u.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>this is wad i saidnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8674009704926423407.post-59217743915491931802009-08-31T06:32:00.000-07:002009-08-31T06:37:50.538-07:00to say the truth....i really nid someone now....not juz there for a couple of hours...walking malls and streets....juz someone....to like...be present....for a day...juz sitting there...listening....<br /><br />i noe i'm really really f'ed up....hell emo....and tons of sadness...<br /><br />i've been waitin for a reply from you about the date....but heys....i cant blame u for being too busy...juz blame my rotten luck....<br /><br />to say the truth, i nid some gal....some gal hu can juz sit there for a day and comfort me....<br /><br />really.....<br /><br />but enough wif the emo thoughts.... 2dae was great....everyting went well.....its like..a break from sadness.... haha.....well.....visting old frenz...seeing them juz makes me laugh....<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />1mp3rf3t10n<br />Some gal who can just be there. Hoping, that it would be you.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8674009704926423407-5921774391549193180?l=dis1smahhheart4u.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>this is wad i saidnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8674009704926423407.post-55542155135673928992009-08-30T07:03:00.000-07:002009-08-30T07:12:17.142-07:00ok...this post is to do some stuff so yea....<br /><br />for Ruth:<br />Erm, the times for which i'll be free.... its kinda troublesome to like post the whole thing on ur cbox, so i'll post it here<br />Mon-1130(I know you wont be able to make it but I'll still put it up)<br />Tues- Whole day free [holiday](I know you wont be able to make it but I'll still put it up)<br />Weds-1430[gotta run back to sch for more lessons by 1510]<br />Thurs-1430<br />Fri-1230(I know you wont be able to make it but I'll still put it up)<br />Sat-1300<br />I cant on Sun and about the Weds and Thurs timeslot, i'm gonna nid you to wait outside my sch....makes things alot better and faster for me, weds is necessary but thurs, i can make a few adjustments<br /><br />for Rytha:<br />Mon, i'll do it for you. But everything's GOTTA come clean<br /><br />for Scott:<br />08/09/09 is on....but giv me ideas on wat to bring<br /><br />ok....tat's all....now a bit of reflection....<br /><br />i noe i've gotta stop all these weird and nasty tings...but heys.... i'm trying but juz cant see the bright side of my life... i noe there are others out there worse then me....100 times worse...but now, i'm juz to clouded to see it.....<br /><br />wat i'm clouded by:<br />Jealousy, Love, Hate, Self-pity, Centeredness......<br />i can get it off my mind....<br /><br />i dunno man....maybe i juz nid someone by my side for now, someone hu i can really rely on.....<br />i noe i got Scott and Syaf, but tat aint enough.....<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />1mp3rf3t10n<br />Abit of a messed up life,somewhat.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8674009704926423407-5554215513567392899?l=dis1smahhheart4u.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>this is wad i saidnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8674009704926423407.post-66202212140621088462009-08-29T08:40:00.000-07:002009-08-29T08:46:15.506-07:00first of all...i wanna congrat Ruth... you've managed to like.... scold vulgarities back at him!!!!!!!that's an improvement!!!!!!<br /><br />i wish you luck in 4gting him....<br /><br />actually...i've been tinking if we WILL ever be 2gt.... its like...almost impossible...<br /><br />its not tat i dun wish to wait....neither do i wish to fight....neither is it ur prob....but...there's juz an invisible force telling me to stop....i wont.... i'm holding on to this small happiness i can find....<br /><br />i actually noe its gonna be tough to even getting tat position in ur heart.... i will keep trying.... but should i ever fail....<br /><br />den i wish you luck wif tat guy you would love whole heartedly....and juz be at the sidelines watching......<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />1mp3rf3t10n<br />Should you find happiness in someone else, I congratulate you.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8674009704926423407-6620221214062108846?l=dis1smahhheart4u.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>this is wad i saidnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8674009704926423407.post-58696923015903129572009-08-28T23:48:00.000-07:002009-08-28T23:55:28.595-07:00haha.... looks like that day is gonna be on a tues/thurs...now hoping its tues.....<br /><br />but heys! tat leaves mon free to visit my sch!!!!!!<br /><br />haha....lets see....NLPS,lodge....LAHALHAHALHA<br /><br />boredom....<br /><br />sigh....still tinking of him eh?<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />1mp3rf3t10n<br />Lunch is gonna be soo exciting!<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8674009704926423407-5869692301590312957?l=dis1smahhheart4u.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>this is wad i saidnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8674009704926423407.post-15129122151288970472009-08-27T06:44:00.000-07:002009-08-27T06:52:44.978-07:00short tempers are coming....,<br />mood swings are happening....<br /><br />i aint caring anymore.... i most probably will pon scouts tml...i dun wanna torture the innocent....<br /><br />my mom:<br />'bitch bitch~~ ur work~~~ blah blah'<br />ok fine...do do do...<br /><br />Rytha:<br />'my life....my relationship..blah blah...coz u my bro'<br />orh....might as well comfort you.....<br /><br />Syafiq:<br />'Lah lah lah...no rank dun talk...lah lah lah... dunno how run troop....'<br />fine... you run on ur own...hav fun in ur gulak camp....<br /><br />no one's ever gonna ask me 'how's it going?' wen every night, i risk my comp.. looking at everyone's blog to make sure everyone is ok....<br /><br />and this is the treatment i get... i'm trying to accommodate everyone... i'm hell slp deprived...i dun dare to slp in...least the flags are left unsupervised....<br /><br />not even a word of thx...not a slight notion... all i'm left wif is myself all the time....<br /><br /><br />all will tink i'm hell stupid...i got all these to myself....<br /><br />ok fine... i did...but anyone noes the reason behind every mistake i do??? i try to repay..it not that i dont wish to....i juz fuck up....<br /><br />juz like my lil fucked up drama life.....<br /><br />sometimes....death seems all so welcoming.....<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />1mp3rf3t10n<br />Who knows? The world might cheer when they see my picture in the obituary section in the papers.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8674009704926423407-1512912215128897047?l=dis1smahhheart4u.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>this is wad i saidnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8674009704926423407.post-5730765450895750072009-08-26T06:41:00.000-07:002009-08-26T06:53:10.151-07:00haha...i figured this skin doesnt post the title...(known a long time) but for this time, i'll say the title.<br /><br />title's -Untitled-<br /><br />haha....basically marks out my life.<br /><br />you noe 'Paint'? yea...the software installed in basically every Windows computer? yea...tat...every startin file is called the 'Untitled' file? i see my life tat way...its always restarting...<br /><br />its only a sooner or l8r ting b4 i start cuttin again.... i'm scratching myself for now....nails are long enough to leave blood stained scratched marks... reminder: get a penknife soon....<br /><br />a.k.a i'm going emo again....sigh.... once emo always emo eh?<br /><br />so here's the deal on others lives...<br /><br />Rytha: Broke up wif Sean (Sean called it)<br />Sean: Broke up wif Rytha (he called it. suspected to be going after a girl named nat)<br />Ruth: haha....good times for her, though piled by work<br />Evangeline: having great times in a relationships.<br />Scott: What'sup bro!!!!!!!<br />Syafiq: Same old same old.<br />Caroline: Not too sure. Haven't talked to her in weeks!!!!!!<br /><br />haha...me? well...basically still love sick, still waiting. erm.....still not handing work, still not treating scouts as a first thing basis.<br /><br />sigh.... ppl cant be worse then me...so put me as a contrast in ur life, and appreciate wat u are having. I'm appreciating my life as it is....so u must too....<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />1mp3rf3t10n<br />Untitled<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8674009704926423407-573076545089575007?l=dis1smahhheart4u.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>this is wad i saidnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8674009704926423407.post-86285790586872315762009-08-25T05:21:00.000-07:002009-08-25T06:14:11.525-07:00a few question to ask myself these days....<br /><br />1. Should I still blog? It seems like a good way to release pent up stress...but...it might hurt others....<br /><br />2. What the HELL have I been doing?<br />Lets see...basic schedule.... read everyone's blog...check is everyone is ok.... hope and pray to chat to her..... go facebook check updates....<br /><br />3. Am I gonna change that schedule?<br />No. Unless sth crops up....<br /><br />4. How's life?<br />Crappy.... sigh....<br /><br />5. Hopes?<br />Ruth....that's all....<br /><br />haha.... self reminder post here....^^<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />1mp3rf3t10n<br />Sometimes, we should just sit down. Drink a cup of coffee and ask ourselves why are we here.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8674009704926423407-8628579058687231576?l=dis1smahhheart4u.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>this is wad i saidnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8674009704926423407.post-11101612497712683022009-08-24T06:30:00.000-07:002009-08-24T07:09:22.190-07:00is the clouds going in??? is my days gonna get better???<br /><br />i'm clinging on the this hope...for i'm finally meeting u again....making this the 5th meetin.... haha....yea...i'm actually counting....guess not a really good thing eh???<br /><br />but buying u lunch is all i can do... i'm juz another bro to u....nothing more...<br /><br />if its better this way...lets leave it as it is....<br /><br />but i'm always waiting for the day to change...where i can be sth more then a bro.....<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />1mp3rf3t10n<br />Days are getting better? Hopefully.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8674009704926423407-1110161249771268302?l=dis1smahhheart4u.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>this is wad i saidnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8674009704926423407.post-33753210377045504292009-08-22T07:46:00.000-07:002009-08-22T07:51:37.670-07:00i realised tat...not many...actually noe me.<br /><br />i noe...wat u guys see.... is actually a very happy horny boy....hu goes around kp ppl he doesn't like....very unreasonable at times....<br /><br />he's madly in love wif someone.... he doesnt care wat his family is doing.... he doesn't give a fart on wat happens to his frenz.... he juz wans tings his way....<br /><br />i would say part of it is true..... maybe the lower part (some)<br /><br />but i actually have this thing to say to all....<br /><br />quoted from Venom Vs Carnage.<br /><br />reason i putting a second post....was becoz the first post was to release anger....<br /><br />i'm a fucked up....lil arrogant snob....i noe.........<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />1mp3rf3t10n<br />'Underneath that skin tight outfit is a scared little boy.'<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8674009704926423407-3375321037704550429?l=dis1smahhheart4u.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>this is wad i saidnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8674009704926423407.post-52492631387681524022009-08-22T01:36:00.000-07:002009-08-22T01:53:34.234-07:00FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!<br /><br />I DUN REALLY NOE GOD FUCK!<br /><br />fucking hell.... wat the hell is wrong!!!!! WHY DOES THIS DOWNWARD SLOPE IN LIFE NVR GOT UP!!!!!!!<br /><br />all i wish.... its juz the exact opposite!!!! You said that all will be forgiven... i'm not am i?! my sin are juz to deep isn't it... God... juz bitch....<br /><br />hell srry to all Christians reading this... to say the truth... the only times i've prayed...is to ask for the protection of all others... i dun care if i'm damned by You.... i dun care if i go to hell or anywhere.... juz get all safe...all to be happy....all to have peace.....<br /><br />but noo...... all You gave them (to Rytha to be specific) is the DAMNED PIECE OF BITTER PIE!!!!!<br /><br />i flared up...scolded her...and she tinks i'm unreasonable....... i dun noe man..... y must i lose temper wen all the time...i was able to keep cool.......<br /><br />i guess its the end...i cant take wat u shove to me...Rytha.... i've been by ur side for the tings i've screwed up for u....but....YOU KEEP BITCHIN TAT YOU CANT SEE HIM.... THINK FOR HELL'S SAKE!!!!! YOU MEET HIM FOR MONTHS!!!!!!!! WAYYY B4 I EVEN LIKED RUTH!!!!!!<br />MONTHS!!!!!!!!!! I'VE MET RUTH ONLY 4 TIMES!!!!!!!! YOU MAY BE DIFFERENT COZ YOU ARE IN A RELATIONSHIP....BUT FUCK!!! WAT'S TRULY THE BIG DIFFERENCE???? A RELATIONSHIP IS STH YOU ARE IN...BUT ITS STILL LOVE... you cant meet hu you love...which is sean... ISN'T IT THE SAME ALRDY?!I CANT MEET HU I LOVE!!!!!!!!!! THAT'S RUTH!!!!!<br /><br />OPEN YOUR EYES RYTHA!!!!!!!!!! JUZ OPEN IT!!!!! STOP LOOKING HOW YOUR LIFE IS WORSE THEN OTHERS!!!!!!!!!! THERE ARE ALWAYS PPL WORSE THEN YOU!!!!!!!!!!<br /><br />i was unreasonable?! then think.... HU GAVE YOU THE GAMES IN THE ARCADE TODAY.... but you didn't tink wat hav happened to me wen u din see me again.... you came out....said...'they can't let you in arh????' ISN'T IT FUCKING OBVIOUS?!?!?! OF COZ I'LL START TO FLARE UP....... THERE WASNT EVEN A SOUND OF SRRY!!!!!!! YOU JUZ LOOKED AT ME....KEEP LOOKING AT ME WIF THOSE FUCKED UP CRYING EYES...HOPING I'LL STOP COZ I WILL TINK YOU'RE ALRDY WORSE THEN ME......THEN RUN OFF....COZ I FLARE UP WIF YOU!!!!<br /><br />I DIN EAT COZ I PAID FOR YOUR MEAL..hav any idea how hungry i am typing this msg?????..... I PAID YOUR ACARDE GAME WIF THE MONEY I WAS SUPPOSE TO SAVE UP FOR CHALET..... I BROUGHT OUT MY SAVINGS COZ I WANTED TO BUY A YOYO.... I BOUGHT IT....BUT I WASN'T GONNA SPEND THE REMAINING......<br /><br />MUST YOU TREAT ME LIKE TAT???? like some guy....who's suppose to pay everything for you????? i'm juz a stand in for sean right?! fuck off....i aint gonna be like tat for long.... i spent 200+ on you...AN AMOUNT TAT'S SEAN SUPPOSE TO.....<br /><br />i dun even noe wat i am to u.....you say bro....i hav my doubts...you treat me like dirt......<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />1mp3rf3t10n<br />You pissed me off too much.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8674009704926423407-5249263138768152402?l=dis1smahhheart4u.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>this is wad i saidnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8674009704926423407.post-84076305043185048762009-08-21T07:12:00.000-07:002009-08-21T07:18:34.433-07:00ARGGH!!!!!!!!<br /><br />I'M SCREWIN UP EVERYTHING I'VE! WHY!?! FUCK!!!<br /><br />firstly... scouts... i juz cant stand the way its being operated!!!!!!!!!!! BADGES BADGES BADGES!!!<br />FUCK IT MAN!!!!!!!! I JOINED COZ OF WHAT IT PROMISED! True friendship shining through! TRUE SKILLS BEING TESTED.... not sayin i'm all good and all....... y are there even ranks?! Baden Powell said there aint ranks in scouts... juz leaders!<br /><br />then...my academics....<br />sigh...my mind is on alot now....i might seem all well...but guess im not eh? haha....wat to do?... juz laugh it off....laughing at myself being unable to balance anything....<br /><br />my personal life is also being disrupted...<br />sigh....<br /><br />i really juz wanna meet you and play wif you for a awhile...even as a friend....but i guess you're juz too busy....<br /><br />speaking to all bros and sis tat hav read this post...i'm planning a bike trip on the 7/9/09....all interested plz tag<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />1mp3rf3t10n<br />As how you would put indescribable words, 'jaskdjalhfeih'<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8674009704926423407-8407630504318504876?l=dis1smahhheart4u.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>this is wad i saidnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8674009704926423407.post-49509589386106913062009-08-18T23:06:00.001-07:002009-08-18T23:08:02.525-07:00hello everyone!!!!!!!! postin in sch now... kinda brought comp over...XD<br /><br />JK currently playing wif tennis racket and paper ball....<br /><br />jun yang screaming his ass off....<br /><br />haha....typical 3e3..... XD<br /><br />damn bored....zzz<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />1mp3rf3t10n<br />School's fun!!! NOT!<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8674009704926423407-4950958938610691306?l=dis1smahhheart4u.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>this is wad i saidnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8674009704926423407.post-57206836392194495272009-08-18T06:55:00.000-07:002009-08-18T06:58:30.310-07:00thx to all hu's helping me....<br /><br />but...i tell u its no point....<br /><br />a person hu's given himself up....is as good as left for the dogs....<br /><br />i'll tell u its a lost cause in my case....<br /><br /><br />if she ever says sth to me in her own mouth... then i might be ok....but now...i'm in the depth of love and hell.........lets juz all rot and die.......<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />1mp3rf3t10n<br />Emo? Yeah.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8674009704926423407-5720683639219449527?l=dis1smahhheart4u.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>this is wad i saidnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8674009704926423407.post-78337217992223840182009-08-17T05:50:00.000-07:002009-08-17T07:05:48.321-07:00.... heys.... this post is gonna be hell emo....so to those hu wans to like....escape? well....clicky the crossy... if not....well....emo is pretty a strong word in this post....<br /><br />so lets start of.... i could hav easily committed suicide..... coz of all tat i'm going through....<br /><br />rytha...i dun like to do wat u keep asking me to do... i noe i screwed ur love life up...i'm doing all these for u...as repayment...but...its not all the time i can fulfil them....its juz hell difficult... my contacts might be high...but everyone juz treats me as a pet dog.... even calling me tat.... i dun noe y... i juz wanna help ppl... but....yea...so dun keep coming to me.... i may not help tat much...and dun complain if i din fulfill it... i've always said 'to my best'....my best doesn't mean 100% to ur plan....<br /><br />and also... the reason i've been unsuccessful in my love life...is coz...i'm concentrating on urs...and u wont let me go...in a way meaning tat u wan me to like....juz overlook everything... i cant do tat all the time....i've got my life... scott and syafiq would say 'why bother helping her?' i say its for my sis...but in my heart...the same question goes on and on....you'll juz complain bout ur life...saying ur life is all so bad cause u cant meet him.... BE THANKFUL YOUR MEETINGS AREN'T CONFINED TO JUZ 4 DAYS.... u saying tat juz makes it worse.....<br /><br />i dunno....<br />my life's all screwed up<br /><br />Sch Life [x]<br />love life [x]<br />friendships [x]<br />personal life [x]<br />cca life [x]<br />after life [x]<br /><br />that's how screwed up my life is....<br /><br />i noe i'm hell juz a waste of space in this world... i noe i'm worthless... i noe i'm juz.... hell stupid...and crazy...and too imperfect....and cant do anything right... i noe all tat.... but....nvm....i guess u guys juz tink tat i...am a happy go lucky boy... hu smiles at all tat is said to him....tinks tat words spoken to him is a joke.....<br /><br />i'm screwed up coz i broke all under 18 laws... i dun care if the police catches me for this... like hell i would.... y would i anyway...<br /><br />i'm screwed up in sch coz everyone tinks...i'm juz a tissue paper...used and thrown... like all my friends....except syafiq.....<br /><br />i'm screwed up coz i cant even get any (ANY) of the girls tat i like....<br /><br />i'm screwed up coz my personal time has been taken from me....<br /><br />i'm screwed up...coz my cca tinks i'm juz takin everything wrongly...and aggressive while at tat....and tat i wont change my tinking....<br /><br />i'm screwed up...coz i'm half demon and juz playing around too much with the will of Him....<br /><br />i dun giv shit.... i could hav easily jumped ever since Ms Choy said i'm juz a worthless person... 'What should we do with this kind of people?!' hell.... kill them all... i'm more then willing to die.... but i wont let it be taken easily... i still hav someone i love...too much.... and still hav yet to be with her....<br /><br />but should she ever be with some other guy... heh... i juz sign the devil's pact...and make myself scarce from this world so tat i'll nvr bother/interfere/destroy/irritate/kill/take away the time of someone's life....<br /><br />and ruth...should you ever read this...thank you...for keeping me alive...and all...<br />dun worry bout me....i've always been alone... this is juz a short time period....<br />i promised i'll still smile..din i?<br /><br />^^<br /><br />i may sound foolish waiting....but i still will.....<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />1mp3rf3t10n<br />I know, the world wants rid of me. Who welcomes the a good-for-nothing person anyways.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8674009704926423407-7833721799222384018?l=dis1smahhheart4u.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>this is wad i saidnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8674009704926423407.post-92082462549906507152009-08-15T06:45:00.000-07:002009-08-15T07:10:25.592-07:00hm.... reflecting on my life... wondering...whether are things brought upon by myself (dun comment bout this sentence.... i noe eng fail...)<br />so lets start wif a small ting first....<br /><br />erm.... sch....<br />well.. i guess i really did screw up my sch life... wif my class and all.... sigh.... maybe.... so maybe i'll hav to solo this whole sch life out....<br /><br />then my frenz...<br />i'm putting you guys above everything... EVERYTHING.... dun disappoint me... i may seem like i'm kping you (ok...maybe i am at david during scouts...hell srry... but yea.... i dun like to make my bros wait... i'll do the same wen ur the waiter... )<br /><br />then rytha...<br />ok... i agree then.... i did cause all this troubles to u....and i'm making it up... for everything.... but its to my limits.... i'm hell srry.... if wat i cant do...leads to a hell big disappointment....<br /><br />oh... and something to tell u.... wen i'm out wif my mom... dun call me...unless really really REALLY urgent... if there are awkward silences during our convo on the phone.... i'm wif my mom.... but if u're admitted to the hospital or sth... CALL AND INFORM IMMEDIATELY.....<br />if u go according to this... my mom's impression on you might (might) jux change....<br /><br />loving ruth is sth i definitely got myself into... and its really nice.... cox... being able to believe in that ting known as love... i've fallen out of that tinking b4...and hell...does it feel extremely lonely... and depressed..... actually...i went emo for a while cox of it.... so hell yea.... i'm really really thankful to u....<br /><br /><br />and montfort knights... actually... david.... erm... i dunno how to put it.... but... i kinda feel abit...disappointed... i noe i aint in the position to say this...i dunno the sop of ur scouts... but.... i feel...(my opinion....) tat....i aint the only one hu's all power hungry... and actually... i believe that....alot of the sec 3s.... tink tat jux becoz of rank.... they can do however they like....<br />i hope to change this tinking.... the reason i feel like this, is coz tat they keep sayin... that juz coz i noe rank.. they can command me around....<br />i noe i'm hell soft and all.... i'll toughen up.... but juz becoz i din attend pltc.... juz becoz i'm stuck not being able to be promoted.... they hav the rights to boss me around... i dun tink so....<br />i dun really wish to see montfort knights... being proud becoz of the badges they wear... i wan them to be proud... of the frenz they hav.... of the bonds the share...<br />i truly believe... scouts is not all bout discipline.. not about pioneering... not about NPC.. not bout ranks... scouts is about.. Unity... Strength in Unity....<br />Baden Powell stated tat scouts hav no ranks... we are all one and same.... but there are leaders... however... u must come down...and be wif the lower people... so u can actually rule them well... as they will know tat YOU noe how they feel if u giv them the job....<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />1mp3rf3t10n<br />Reflection.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8674009704926423407-9208246254990650715?l=dis1smahhheart4u.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>this is wad i saidnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8674009704926423407.post-27167193009410366412009-08-13T03:27:00.000-07:002009-08-13T03:34:24.732-07:00XDXD.... i realised something really REALLY coincidental...<br /><br />ok first off.... lets start wif this...<br /><br />there are 4 closest 'sis' to me....<br /><br />from youngest to oldest, they are<br /><br />1)Evangeline<br />2)Rytha<br />3)Ruth<br />4)Caroline<br /><br />now... to tell u the coincidental part....<br />the one's hu got sick...order is from first to last<br /><br />1)Evangeline (flu... i tink??? she was on a 6 days mc)<br />2)Rytha (admitted to hospital....stomach virus....currently 7days mc)<br />3)Ruth (h1n1.... 3 day mc)<br /><br />XDXD..... but mustn't laugh at their suffering....<br /><br />then there is life for me these days too.....<br /><br />thur's has turn into a cook out day for me.... green tea peppermint is back so i'm drinking it again.... top 10 of my fav drinks.....<br /><br />and also...praying for both Rytha and you.... GET WELL SOON MY SIS(S) (put it like that coz siss would look weird)<br />and also my loved one...^^<br /><br />i noe i shouldn't still feel the same.... but i still do... i dun care anymore...jux hang on.... for i've hung for a longer time period b4.....<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />1mp3rf3t10n<br />Coincidence??? HAHA<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8674009704926423407-2716719300941036641?l=dis1smahhheart4u.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>this is wad i saidnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8674009704926423407.post-51046011818068841972009-08-11T04:04:00.000-07:002009-08-11T04:09:15.499-07:00so we made this bet.... this deal actually....<br /><br />she keeps her smile on....i'll keep mine....<br /><br />XD....<br /><br />and rytha's gonna be discharged tml.... all starts well ends well.....<br /><br />so.... one down...other to go....<br /><br />lets play the waiting game....<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />1mp3rf3t10n<br />Waiting for you. Never gonna give up till I see you in someone's arms.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8674009704926423407-5104601181806884197?l=dis1smahhheart4u.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>this is wad i saidnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8674009704926423407.post-65498188230301143622009-08-06T03:48:00.000-07:002009-08-06T04:44:26.939-07:00tings are heating again... great....<br /><br />we'll see wat we can do...i'm not to interrupt so dun blame me lil sis....<br /><br />and ruth...dun blame me...i cant really tink of u...though i still love you for the whole world to noe....<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />1mp3rf3t10n<br />Syafiq asked me not to interrupt, I'll just be here to comfort you.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8674009704926423407-6549818823030114362?l=dis1smahhheart4u.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>this is wad i saidnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8674009704926423407.post-1695212998678864522009-08-04T05:33:00.000-07:002009-08-04T05:40:23.952-07:00hmm...lets highlight the good points 2dae....<br /><br />wore full u and was in the hot sun wif scouts...haha.... fun....though sweaty.... den called her to check on her.... must be sounding a tiny bit nosey and busybody (somewhat) that's how i felt..... then she called (erm....to say the truth...wasn't expecting it....thought it was mom...so was actually planning to leave it in the pocket.... then saw ur no. on the screen)....XDXD<br /><br />den the sad part....<br /><br />i seem so carefree....(not tml....gonna kena scolding by Mr.Tan...XDXD) yet everyone around me is crumbling under pressure.... i hate seeing how i'm standing.....<br /><br />David's all stressed by scouts not behaving.....<br />Rytha's pressured by sch<br />Ruth aint havin a good time herself<br />Evangeline is on MC and suffering....<br /><br />ok...maybe the ppl are mostly girls... (MOSTLY....2/4 are anyways....XDXD) but still....it aint a pretty sight.....<br /><br />i'm still missing you....i'm still tinking of u.... and i cant get it out....coz its impossible to get over ur true love.... especially wen u noe she's suffering...<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />1mp3rf3t10n<br />When sadness found you, would you look at it in the eyes, smile and say, 'Hi buddy!' I know I would. I already found Lonely.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8674009704926423407-169521299867886452?l=dis1smahhheart4u.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>this is wad i saidnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8674009704926423407.post-89935636989570742722009-08-03T05:57:00.000-07:002009-08-03T06:13:24.361-07:00i'm studying.... now's a small break...so i'll post....XD<br /><br />i jux lov posting all my memories here.... and hopin it would last all the way till i'm old.... or somewhere there....XD<br /><br />and of coz.... up to now....i'm still tinking of u..... i cant get over u.... so i'll jux do small lil favours for you..... hehe....<br /><br />okok....gotta get bac to work.... tests coming up tml.... same number as u.... haha.... i bet u'll nvr noe...best leave it like tat.... ur test probably tougher than mine....dun wanna u worry for me.... hehe....<br /><br />i noe its stupid to do these here in this blog....jux another chapter of my sins.....<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />1mp3rf3t10n<br />Happiness if filling in with every word you spoke to me.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8674009704926423407-8993563698957074272?l=dis1smahhheart4u.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>this is wad i saidnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8674009704926423407.post-48581781604388138742009-08-02T06:15:00.001-07:002009-08-02T06:35:46.007-07:00kinda happy and sad at the same time....<br /><br />yesterday was pure maddness.... Mayflower gangshow(no campfire coz of field construction) was fun.... the starting was all-so-boring... (montfort was spelled as monfort AGAIN... troop cheer was stressed) hahax.... everything was according to plan as how they did...PDS... trailer guessing.... dress ups.... slow dance... and songs... LOTS AND LOTS OF SONGS.... haha... the unexpected things should be the light bulb going off and on due to the ppl tripping over the wire... XD...slow dance was tempting to ask a guide to dance... but couldnt muster the courage... maybe holding becoz of...hehe...was first offered a drink by a guide...refused cause was reminded of sth....<br /><br />then 2dae was a happy lil gathering wif my nanny(she used to take care of me wen i was young)....den she cooked up this scrumptious meal for us.... it was delicious!!!!!! the curry was nice.... the cereal prawns are really nice....<br /><br /><br />the night after the campfire... that night.... all i could picture...b4 i slp... was u and i... under a spotlight and dancing away.... and i dreamt....not jux that night...but also a few nights before.....bout u.... i was over at ur hse...or room.... and u were in my arms... and we were jux there....sitting.... u were lying down on me..... ur head of my chest... it was all so real....so real.... the hair and everything...<br /><br />and i woke up.....<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />1mp3rf3t10n<br />Would you let me have this one slow dance?<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8674009704926423407-4858178160438813874?l=dis1smahhheart4u.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>this is wad i saidnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8674009704926423407.post-61703642444933371822009-07-31T07:14:00.000-07:002009-07-31T07:19:41.195-07:00lets do a small review of my life here!!!!<br /><br />review 1: Comparison to my old pri sch life....<br />more moody...more emo-y.... XD.... more brother and sister hoods<br /><br />review 2: This week<br />XD so many things sia.... lets see....currently down if some weird sickness....(dunno wat sickness coz i nvr see doc.... XD) and also aaaalot of tings nid to bother about....<br />1.ERM....Physics file is missing...and currently no idea wat to do (i din hav 1 to begin wif)<br />2.taking of troop<br />3.balancing friends and work (i'm making friends more important..so dun fail me....)<br /><br />sigh.....<br />being called the dog of the class maybe infuriating... but i juz hav to live wif it....<br /><br />like what i hav to do.... knwing u wont be by my side anymore... for i've wasted my chances...and would nvr ask again.... so all i can do.... is pray tat u are smiling everytimei tink of u....hope tat ur enjoying life as i pray and swear tat i'm here for u...<br /><br />i noe its hell stupid to wait... but i've always been dumb<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />1mp3rf3t10n<br />Dumbest guy in the world.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8674009704926423407-6170364244493337182?l=dis1smahhheart4u.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>this is wad i saidnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8674009704926423407.post-88997364576216771142009-07-28T05:45:00.000-07:002009-07-28T05:48:09.847-07:00running out of ideas these days.....<br /><br />XD<br /><br />lets see....<br /><br />tml's gonna be hell coz i ran from Mr Tan (physics).....<br /><br />then....2dae....<br /><br />i've been tinking alot(2dae's special.... very strong....).... and class was whisking away.....<br />what to do??? stop and entertain all those dreams..... Rytha screamed at me..... and it sounded soo much lke you.....<br /><br />what to do...wat to do????<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />1mp3rf3t10n<br />Almost ran across the road at the junction after sending you off. It was red on my side. You can guess. (Rytha)<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8674009704926423407-8899736457621677114?l=dis1smahhheart4u.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>this is wad i saidnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8674009704926423407.post-51109029780117963622009-07-23T03:41:00.000-07:002009-07-23T03:44:29.370-07:00i'm living my days as they are.... and also trying my best not to tink bout u...<br /><br />2dae was easy not tinking bout u.... my mind was concentrating on escape from my cher (hu's hmk i owe lots...and the last period of the day was hers....:P) HAHA!!!!! me and nick was like...<br /><br />Joseph:' Nick!!! Pack up first!!! l8r class end can chiong out!!! (1345)<br />Nick: 'Ok!!!'<br />*ding dong ding dong*<br />Joseph: 'ZAO ZAO ZAO!!!!'<br /><br />LOL!!!! i bet tml's gonna be hell... but lets juz say... it can be done if i wanted it to be....<br /><br />:P<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />1mp3rf3t10n<br />Living each day, knowing that face that I can never, ever reach.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8674009704926423407-5110902978011796362?l=dis1smahhheart4u.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>this is wad i saidnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8674009704926423407.post-26837767796025169392009-07-22T03:37:00.000-07:002009-07-22T03:41:18.213-07:00i've lost my personal seal.... to seal whatever it is...<br /><br />i ask u guys.... dont u find that...i've been ok all these while??? no attacks at all???<br /><br />its coz of that seal... that very seal.....<br /><br />and now.... its gone.... and gone forever....<br /><br />it is in a pair.... one to keep me from turning absolute evil... other to jux keep me with my emotions....<br /><br />this pair... is no ordinary pair... its a metalic pair of items.....<br /><br />and this pair... was enchanted to keep me safe... and another if i was to giv it.....<br /><br />if anything happens to me from this day onwards... srry.....i cant control anymore....<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />1mp3rf3t10n<br />The pair. Lost.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8674009704926423407-2683776779602516939?l=dis1smahhheart4u.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>this is wad i saidnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8674009704926423407.post-68272421618408500732009-07-19T04:37:00.000-07:002009-07-19T04:41:28.822-07:002dae...and now...i'll break my 1day/1post rule....maybe coz i got alot on my mine....<br /><br />and its really basically u.....<br /><br />tinkin of u...is all i can do now....<br /><br />and not being able to see u...<br /><br />is not being able to feel warmth for a day....<br /><br />everyday....although i hang around wif a few of my frenz, one is that she's gonna juz be wif her stead.... and tat really brings me down.... two is tat...this bro of mine...doesnt really help....<br /><br />so....all i do...is tink and hope, how happy... u r at the moment... and tat u are the happiest now...and on and on...<br /><br />i've been really irritating.... juz trying to talk.... maybe u r ignoring me...maybe u're juz too busy.... but i dun mind both...juz....maybe....giv a short reply....and all is well enough for me....<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />1mp3rf3t10n<br />You probably not read this.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8674009704926423407-6827242161840850073?l=dis1smahhheart4u.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>this is wad i saidnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8674009704926423407.post-87341759056817318232009-07-18T23:56:00.000-07:002009-07-19T01:29:47.907-07:00lets revolve around 4 tings 2dae....<br /><br />Tears:<br />Knowing this girl that i've met so short....should hav been simple to 4gt the feelin hav got 4 her...i should hav 4gtten how she look....wat her smiles were like... what her body feels like... wat her laughter sounds like... wat true happiness should be..... wat i cant hav....<br /><br />Sins:<br />Smoke,Drink,Sex,Summoning,Talking to Them,Running from home,Disobedenice....<br /><br />Flaws:<br />So great are the amount of sins... so deep are the wrongs... i cant right them all....i'll juz carry.... and walk....<br /><br />Life:<br />Who would like this guy? who would wan a guy...hu practically doesnt care what his frenz hav gone through....wat his 'sisters' or 'brothers' troubles are....hu ignores the fact tat he is doing things tat hurt those around him.....<br /><br />juz....thoughts....<br />my.....thoughts.....<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />1mp3rf3t10n<br />Tears, Sins, Flaws, Life, Death.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8674009704926423407-8734175905681731823?l=dis1smahhheart4u.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>this is wad i saidnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8674009704926423407.post-53752336130018899802009-07-14T05:13:00.000-07:002009-07-14T05:15:51.190-07:00hm....where to start where to start???<br /><br />haha....well...looks like another drama is gone start kickin in..... its gone.... and going....<br /><br />yawnz....<br /><br />and then back to u....<br /><br />i'm tryin so hard.... its bringing me to tears.... to try and 4gt you totally....<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />1mp3rf3t10n<br />What's up with all the short posts???<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8674009704926423407-5375233613001889980?l=dis1smahhheart4u.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>this is wad i saidnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8674009704926423407.post-37720661540256322722009-07-13T02:48:00.000-07:002009-07-13T02:50:51.430-07:00I'm feeling generous...so if there's any song request you wanna listen to on this blog.... do leave me a note in the cbox right over<br /><br /><<<<<<<<br /><br />2dae... i decided to leave the last chance hanging.....<br /><br /><br />so... help me pimp up my blog and giv me song requests!!!!!<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />1mp3rf3t10n<br />Melodies that fill the ears of everybody who wishes to listen.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8674009704926423407-3772066154025632272?l=dis1smahhheart4u.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>this is wad i saidnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8674009704926423407.post-52626399734470469702009-07-10T21:26:00.000-07:002009-07-10T21:50:55.218-07:00now.... these few things are the least of wat i truly am hoping for....<br />Syafiq,Scott,Caroline,Ruth,Rytha,Sean,Ky and 2 more gals....basically the ppl i wish to do these activities wif<br /><br />1.Play pool <br />2.Coffee drinking in a jazzy cafe<br />3.Cycling<br />4.Swimming in the sea<br />5.Day gazing<br />6.Hav a nice bbq by the sunset<br />7.Stargazing<br />8.Moon watching<br />9.Movies<br />10.A slumber party<br /><br />hoping it would work on the dec holidays<br /><br />wasn't able to throw "stuff" into the sea today....<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />1mp3rf3t10n<br />Still thinking,will continue thinking. But always hoping.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8674009704926423407-5262639973447046970?l=dis1smahhheart4u.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>this is wad i saidnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8674009704926423407.post-58068807983545270152009-07-09T23:11:00.000-07:002009-07-09T23:14:39.412-07:00oreta awai tsubasa<br />kimi wa sukoshi aosugiru<br />sora ni tsukareta dake sa<br />mou dareka no tame janakute<br />jibun no tame ni waratte ii yo<br /><br />izen toshite shinobiyoru kodoku<br />uchigawa ni tomaru rousoku<br />nigi wa ubau ni koukana chandaria to wa urahara ni<br />tarinai kotoba no<br />kubomi wo nanide umetaraiin darou<br />mou wakaranai yo<br />semete yume no naka de<br />jiyuu ni oyogetara<br />anna sora mo iranai no ni<br />kinou made no koto wo<br />nuritsubusanakutemo<br />asu ni mukaeru no ni<br /><br />oreta awai tsubasa<br />kimi wa sukoshi aosugiru<br />sora ni tsukaretadake sa<br />mou dareka no tame janakute<br />jibun no tame ni waratte ii yo<br /><br />rettoukan to no wakai wa<br />kantan ni wa kanawanaisa<br />jiishiki no teppen ni suwaru<br />kagami ga utsusu hanabira<br /><br />furishiboru you ni<br />kogoreta ai wo sakende miru keredo<br />modokashikute<br /><br />meguru toki no naka de<br />kizuguchi wa yagate<br />kasabuta ni kawatte iku<br />kimi wa sore o matasu<br />totemo utsukushiku<br />totemo hakanage de<br /><br />hagare ochita ato no<br />ubuge no you ni<br />hiwamari no naka de furueru inori<br />ima wa muri ni dareka no koto<br />ai sou to omowanakute ii no ni<br /><br />toki ni kono sekai wa<br />ue wo muite<br />aruku ni wa sukoshi mabushisugiru ne<br />shizumu you ni<br />me wo fuseru to<br />kawaita shimen ga namida wo susuru<br /><br />why do you remember<br />without having now<br />subete wo uketomenakute no ii yo<br />why do you remember<br />without having now<br />koraeru koto dakedo<br />yuuki ja nai<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />1mp3rf3t10n<br />Songs.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8674009704926423407-5806880798354527015?l=dis1smahhheart4u.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>this is wad i saidnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8674009704926423407.post-89900568323648051572009-07-08T02:45:00.000-07:002009-07-08T02:47:14.387-07:00its jux really heart wrenching....<br /><br />i'm looking at the green little man... standing at the bottom of my desktop.... there it is... juz sitting....no sign...no clock....<br /><br />its an online sign... and its juz sitting there....<br /><br />all i wish... is that it'll blink blue... jux once....<br /><br />i nid you in my life....i really do.....<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />1mp3rf3t10n<br />Its you that I ask for.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8674009704926423407-8990056832364805157?l=dis1smahhheart4u.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>this is wad i saidnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8674009704926423407.post-18028113222488318362009-07-07T05:44:00.000-07:002009-07-07T06:00:02.679-07:00LOL.... leg still cramp from yesterday....zzz<br /><br />ok...<br />lets talk bout yesterday... free and easy... so went wif scott... go his hse...then play bball wif his frenz....also went swimming....syafiq tagged along<br /><br />so the new guys i know are... Steven.... Rayner...Bryan... and Evan (srry cant spell your full name....:P) Evan and Rayner 2gter...<br /><br />LOL... so was playing 24.. figured out a few... and EVAN... YOU SUCK AT COUNTING LAWLS....<br /><br />then Rayner KP the freaking security guard...cant stop laughing.... LAWLS....<br /><br />LEG CRAMP!!!!<br /><br /><br />seeing u online...knowing that you are right in front of the comp....but unable to reply...i feel so lonely... and yet...i feel sad as u are piled by work....and stressed out all the time<br /><br /><br /><br /><br />1mp3rf3t10n<br />Sigh.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8674009704926423407-1802811322248831836?l=dis1smahhheart4u.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>this is wad i saidnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8674009704926423407.post-17533079923796003012009-07-03T03:30:00.000-07:002009-07-03T03:49:37.026-07:00everytime i tink of a gal.... u came to my mind.......<br /><br />so i can tell... all i wan is you....<br /><br />sometimes i wonder....if you ever read this blog.....<br /><br />sometimes.... even if you are not there.... u gav me a bit of company....juz tinking of you....<br /><br />but now you dun reply....<br /><br />i feel ignored...<br /><br />coz it seems everyone would hav rather me dead....<br /><br />i dunnoe bout how u tink....<br /><br />but i hope its not that.....<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />1mp3rf3t10n<br />See you when I wake up, its a gift, I didn't think it could be real.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8674009704926423407-1753307992379600301?l=dis1smahhheart4u.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>this is wad i saidnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8674009704926423407.post-89428533284650071532009-07-01T04:25:00.000-07:002009-07-01T04:27:57.635-07:00i've got all the preparations done.. juz wonder if all will work....<br /><br />sigh... i wanna get a new car... but i can't decide which to get... so i'm gonna ask her (Maximum Tune)<br /><br />:P.... looks like i'm relying on her opinions on alot.... maybe coz her choices all seem to nice..... and crazy...<br /><br />i've told you that crazy gals are my type.... so dun tink i wont like u coz u tink u got a weird personality... its all these that makes you unique....<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />1mp3rf3t10n<br />Crossing my fingers till they hurt.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8674009704926423407-8942853328465007153?l=dis1smahhheart4u.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>this is wad i saidnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8674009704926423407.post-25135355409896831422009-06-30T04:53:00.000-07:002009-06-30T05:11:43.474-07:00i've finally found the reasons for my nice screwed up life....<br /><br />1. I'm a very worrisome person. i worry about my frenz the most.... all whom are fighting a fight with godly entities...or trying to tame them... and the 2 frenz whom hav bad financial crisis now in their families.....<br /><br />2. You.. are all i tink about in this period.... the reasons why i'm still living... the reasons y i keep fighting... maybe... all i nid.... is the length of a song to tell you all that i wish to....<br /><br />all these... i dun mind... for... you guys... are the everything of me... the family, friends that smile with me, for me for life....<br /><br /><br /><br />wondering if you ever read this web<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />1mp3rf3t10n<br />All I wish now, is to hold your hand up high, declaring the love of my life.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8674009704926423407-2513535540989683142?l=dis1smahhheart4u.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>this is wad i saidnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8674009704926423407.post-83857950263324867892009-06-28T16:19:00.001-07:002009-06-28T16:20:42.628-07:00ok... here to blog before sch.. currently on the trip to sch... 88.......<br /><br /><br />short post<br /><br />HERE'S TO A GOOD 2ND HALF OF SCH!!!!!!!<br /><br />LOL....>w<<br /><br /><br /><br /><br />1mp3rf3t10n<br />Sigh. School.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8674009704926423407-8385795026332486789?l=dis1smahhheart4u.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>this is wad i saidnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8674009704926423407.post-86397145107810170962009-06-26T21:40:00.000-07:002009-06-26T21:45:58.570-07:00time has once again flew past...<br /><br />to say the truth... there were only a few memorable glances in this holiday.... i hope the dec holi would be better....<br /><br />so here i'm typing... so you guys should know i din meet her.... haha... there's always another time....<br /><br />i always tell my frenz to smile.. but can i truly ever smile again????<br /><br />the dark side of life seems to creep as fast as possible... to drag you down... so you can live your life in fear and misery.... how do we light up the wick of a candle wen the candle can't be seen in its full form...<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />1mp3rf3t10n<br />Ever stronger.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8674009704926423407-8639714510781017096?l=dis1smahhheart4u.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>this is wad i saidnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8674009704926423407.post-35645575694724655562009-06-25T21:00:00.000-07:002009-06-25T21:06:06.955-07:00great!!! one down one to go....<br /><br />thx bro... u did relieve a few stress of my back....<br /><br />now nid hope and pray she's alrite after her camp.... i can oni say that a 10% chance of her going out with me tml....<br /><br />i'm not gonna do my work...i noe how things would work for me.... there's actually 2 things that will happen:<br /><br />1.I finish my work. I can go out. But she won't meet me.<br />2.I didn't finish my work. I can't go out. She is willing to meet me.<br /><br />that's how things will work out.....<br /><br />i added songs to my blog... hope u guys like it.....<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />1mp3rf3t10n<br />It's 10% luck,20% skill, 15% concentrated power of will. 5% pleasure , 50% pain and a 100% reason to remember the name.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8674009704926423407-3564557569472465556?l=dis1smahhheart4u.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>this is wad i saidnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8674009704926423407.post-45659763993476787042009-06-22T04:23:00.000-07:002009-06-22T04:26:32.873-07:00What's the boredom of bored? Dunno...me either.... but that's how bored i am... i'm sooo bored... i dunno whether its boredom or bored....<br /><br />yawnz....mapling this few days... nth better to do.....<br /><br />and kept flapping through her facebook... so that i can always remember that smile on her face.....<br /><br />alrdy missing her...... by alot......<br /><br />then.... wondering if sat can find her again... juz hope that she's not too tired after camp.....<br /><br />yea....she's at camp now.....<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />1mp3rf3t10n<br />How and what's the best way to propose?<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8674009704926423407-4565976399347678704?l=dis1smahhheart4u.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>this is wad i saidnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8674009704926423407.post-73523478509607042832009-06-20T05:54:00.000-07:002009-06-20T05:57:14.738-07:002dae was great... was having a great time wif her.... though it was all work... but spending time wif her was worth it....<br /><br />so we were moving chairs and stuff.... i get to see her once more... (got to hug her back too)<br /><br />that's all for 2dae... i will speak more next time....<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />1mp3rf3t10n<br />If I was ever asked the question:'Who's life is much more precious to you?', I would say hers as she went through quite some rough times. So I want to help her have a greater time in this world.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8674009704926423407-7352347850960704283?l=dis1smahhheart4u.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>this is wad i saidnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8674009704926423407.post-55361410145423400042009-06-19T05:03:00.000-07:002009-06-19T05:09:59.081-07:00whoo hoo!!!!!<br /><br />Weds was cool..... i went to pick dry grass wif my juniors.... then Christopher came along...soo after picking.... we (juniors and syafiq and his juniors) went his hse.... we played many things... but on xbox 360... guitar hero, halo 3 and more...... WE ROCKED.... haha....played songs like Misery Business, What I've Done and many more......i was on the bass... can nvr sing.... chris on guitar (his riffs are best!!!) syafiq's on drums.....<br /><br />then..... 2dae... i had pariss(for those hu don't noe.. its this really classy place for seafood which is ok.....) the food was soo soo.... i would say that the sashimi wasn't really well prepared but the sashimo was hell go...very well done.... i wont really recomend this restruant to those hu can't take seafood..... but those hu really REALLY like seafood... it would be worth a try......<br /><br /><br /><br /><br />but... through out 2dae...<br /><br />i worry for the 2 gals....<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />1mp3rf3t10n<br />Would you guys stop saying Wu Ding in front of me?! (Family. Blood)<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8674009704926423407-5536141014542340004?l=dis1smahhheart4u.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>this is wad i saidnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8674009704926423407.post-50781706568037588722009-06-17T17:14:00.000-07:002009-06-17T17:17:43.333-07:00sometimes... i wonder if she's ever reading this.....<br /><br />and then.. wen she doesn't talk.. i think 2 things in my mind....<br /><br />1)She said that she won't talk to the guys she like....<br />2)Is she piled up by work AGAIN?<br /><br />then if 2 is correct, i wonder if she's slping much these days.....<br /><br />hope everything's alrite....<br /><br />and next week... i hope it wont be cancelled.....<br /><br />alone.... loneliness.....<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />1mp3rf3t10n<br />The odd one out.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8674009704926423407-5078170656803758872?l=dis1smahhheart4u.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>this is wad i saidnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8674009704926423407.post-91542389168024087102009-06-16T05:17:00.000-07:002009-06-16T05:24:22.741-07:00I laugh at you sis.... coz i knew right from the start wen u got nearer to justin that a sticky end is coming... and you got into it... now i'll help you out.... but u gotta noe by now.... fire is a hot thing to play with...<br /><br />and yet... here i am... possess by 7 demons.... HAHA..... sanity is still in me....<br /><br />well... she said she's gonna meet me nxt week... i gotta call a fren along.. so... MEI MEI.... you judge her bah.. then scott will judge... then syafiq...then sean.... then jie jie... OOPS!!!! I HOPE YOU DUN SEE THIS!!!!! but...den again.... i hope you wont mind......<br /><br />yawnz.... was able to change my car's color 2dae.... from white to yellow.... and also got a new decal.... black fire... my aero set also changed to C (man... i hated B for the lights.... hell ugly) And the tires are now shiny silver..... MOST IMPORTANTLY.... I HIT THE 810 HP MARK!!!!! WHOOTS!!!! this means my 780hp tuning is now at D (that means normal drift... there's the DG which is a greater class of drifters....but hated it for the steering is never stable....) I love my new car.... i hope to get the aura and the neon lights soon... i wan both to be blue.... so its another 4km more and ALOT more dress up lvls...<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />1mp3rf3t10n<br />Your love for blue seems to have rubbed off on me. xD<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8674009704926423407-9154238916802408710?l=dis1smahhheart4u.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>this is wad i saidnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8674009704926423407.post-75339054538296545492009-06-13T22:43:00.001-07:002009-06-13T22:49:42.201-07:00sigh.... so worried for soooo many things currently....<br /><br />1. Amaths....<br />Ok...can't really say juz amaths but whole of academics..... they really are reproving by a whole lot..... (maybe some of u guys noe y... wont state here....maybe you guys don't....) sigh.... i specifically say amaths coz i'm gettin lost in a sea of numbers.....<br /><br />2. LJ (short. man)<br />wont state name here. I'm be using he/she to address the person in mind..... He/she is gettin screwed up in life... and so i'm here worrying if he/she'll ever get out of it.... that night seeing him/her cry out made me pity him/her by alot...... he/she kinda cried very badly.... worst of all the 3 times i've seen.....<br /><br />3. 7884 (blue jay)<br />haha... this one i tink my 'family' should noe the best lah... so wont explain..... xD<br /><br />overall, i'm havin quite a good turn now... still nid help Mousedeer plan for friday's cooking... HOW YOU COOK VEGETABLES THROUGH OUTDOOR COOKING?!<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />1mp3rf3t10n<br />The world of mine is currently undergoing a storm of worries.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8674009704926423407-7533905453829654549?l=dis1smahhheart4u.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>this is wad i saidnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8674009704926423407.post-89515813249409454462009-06-11T00:44:00.000-07:002009-06-11T01:04:28.383-07:00hi all!!!<br /><br />i changed my skin... The White Reaper.... i like him alot....<br /><br />also....<br /><br />i'm worried bout her... she aint feelin all that happy..... <br /><br />short post....<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />1mp3rf3t10n<br />Life is full of worries.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8674009704926423407-8951581324940945446?l=dis1smahhheart4u.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>this is wad i saidnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8674009704926423407.post-13949858029843066132009-06-09T01:53:00.000-07:002009-06-09T02:01:53.015-07:00haix.... that stupid bet on sat....<br /><br />let me explain... Montfort Knights hav gotten an invitation to Mayflower Campfire.... so Syafiq proposed this stupid bet....<br />as there are Guides being there.... the SEC 3s (only) are to race to get number, get date. Last to do so cleans the scout room for a whole mth.... haha....<br /><br />but there is sth i want to make clear.....<br />though i'm asked to make a date with the gal, i wont stead wif her... for i'll wait for tat very gal hu changed my life quite for the best... the one hu sees the best in me.... i love you for doing that for me.....<br /><br />actually.... i'm such a damned fuck up guy...hu would want to know me anyways.....<br /><br />zzz.....I din go train my car 2dae.... so its stuck at 700hp now....<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />1mp3rf3t10n<br />I'll love you and only you.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8674009704926423407-1394985802984306613?l=dis1smahhheart4u.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>this is wad i saidnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8674009704926423407.post-18274006883082979252009-06-08T04:01:00.000-07:002009-06-08T04:11:09.901-07:00here's 2dae topic:<br />There's always hope for those you dont hav it....<br /><br />but first off.... I HAD QUITE SOME FUN 2DAE AND YESTERDAY!!!! i slpt over at sherwin's hse...so we played 360 in the dark.... ownage of him to me in DOA4.... I LOST MY TOUCH!!! T_T and den talked and played cards wif him till 3 in the morning.... then 2dae was arcade-LAN-arcade..... my car has only gone up to 700hp but with lots of new wheels and a totally different colour...(but i din change it... yellow doesnt suit me.....xD) my hoops shooting went down......zzz<br /><br />now.... on to HOPE....<br /><br />i want everyone to noe... i really mean no harm in wat ever i do... i'm really sorry if i screwed up major.... and that i'm always here to help/guide/be there for them.... no matter what.... maybe if i can't be there in person.... but if u tell me the reason on y you are down or sad.... a call away is not that difficult.... i promise that to all now..... no matter when....<br />AND MOST IMPORTANTLY.... dun lose hope in what ever that there's no way a trouble/problem can't be solved.....<br /><br /><br />and lastly...and always.... a short part of the post dedicated to you (i'll always do this)<br />during shooting hoops in the arcade 2dae.... every score reminds me of you....and i always wonder if you can play basketball well.... wanna play wif you some day... now, its pool and basketball...i'll tink of more sports... and also... we (sherwin and I) talked alot bout you and *someone* (not telling) haha.....<br />I realised sth... you look really like one of the chinese stars.... i 4gt her name...<br /><br /><br />oh... i got a new (erm....poem thing?) thingy<br /><br />Fallen Angel<br />Risen Demon<br />But all that I am<br />Is just a mere Human<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />1mp3rf3t10n<br />The nasty bird catcher, trying to catch the ever freed blue jay.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8674009704926423407-1827400688308297925?l=dis1smahhheart4u.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>this is wad i saidnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8674009704926423407.post-82023884546335860472009-06-05T06:55:00.000-07:002009-06-05T07:02:50.225-07:002dae started off with Maximum Tune...<br /><br />managed to hit the 680 hp mark....along wif my first (tail?) and new set of wheels...<br />also managed to defeat a 780hp car wif my 660 hp car.... AWESOME......haha.... i knew all i needed was a faster car.......<br /><br />then the PMT.... fuck the adults....<br /><br />then mom go ECP for fun....so we went for lunch at subway (the chicken terriyaki wrap sucked) then cycling and dinner was this korean BBQ thing....<br /><br />first....cycling....<br />i wasted quite some energy cycling due to the fact that i was thinkin of you heavily.... and all i was thinkin was how we would spend our time at the beach 2gtr.... but then...i was wonderin wen that would be...and i sped off.... cryin silently in my heart....<br /><br />then the korean BBQ ting....<br />Shiok.... alot of veggies though... but was nice....very fillin....<br /><br />now i'm wondering if you accepted the $5 from sherwin..... i wish you would..... i hate owing gals money.....<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />1mp3rf3t10n<br />You occupied my mind, my thoughts, my heart, my soul.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8674009704926423407-8202388454633586047?l=dis1smahhheart4u.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>this is wad i saidnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8674009704926423407.post-68371526206490229802009-06-03T00:28:00.000-07:002009-06-03T00:39:25.167-07:00its nearly the end of the first week of holidays....<br /><br />i aint enjoying myself.... but its glad to noe the rest of my frenz are.... with their steads or other frenz....<br /><br />my first week of holidays...shows kinda bad future....<br /><br />everyone's ignoring me.... i'm juz screwing their life up....<br />im juz a dog everyone kicks around....<br />i am juz a useless guy in this world.....unable to help anyone....or even cheer them up....<br /><br />anyways....thx to all readers juz for reading.....really appreciated ^_^<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />1mp3rf3t10n<br />Why treasure life when it sucks anyway?<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8674009704926423407-6837152620649022980?l=dis1smahhheart4u.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>this is wad i saidnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8674009704926423407.post-43374826747839724652009-06-02T04:07:00.001-07:002009-06-02T05:05:28.142-07:00i'm sooo messed up...<br /><br />why am i getting dragged to things i dun wish to be in...den get blamed for being in there....<br /><br />i kept wondering the purpose of me in this world.... to do stupid stuff and commit suicide coz of it later???<br /><br />i wonder.... how am i gonna help ppl....yet...whoever i help, i'll juz hurt that person or another...<br /><br />its sickening....<br /><br />so i go to the arcade and play maximum tune.... now at 600 hp.... haha.... hope to get the neon lights soon....<br /><br />and still... i tink of that blue bird... the one that's so brilliant in blue.... the one that always gets troubled by sth..... and the one whom seems to be so happy....<br /><br />its so screwed up....<br /><br />If you dun wan a person to die becoz you noe you'll be left alone....wont that be selfish?<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />1mp3rf3t10n<br />Screwed up.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8674009704926423407-4337482674783972465?l=dis1smahhheart4u.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>this is wad i saidnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8674009704926423407.post-51292441899540940082009-05-31T22:32:00.000-07:002009-06-01T02:51:06.714-07:00haha....2dae marks the start of the holidays.... yet there's no one i can hangout wif.... its kinda a bad start....<br /><br />i hope for a good holiday....and also to be wif her for as long and as many times as possible....<br /><br />i wonder every night.... how you are... how u are feeling.... are you sick... how u would feel like.... how warm u might be in my arms.... how moist ur lips are... how u slp....<br /><br />so many things... and yet i cant be able to make them sastified....<br /><br />i went to play Maximum Tune 2dae...and i've not tuned it enough yet....<br /><br />whenever i'm bored....i'll look at the previous conversations we had...dating bac to dec 2008.... and realised that u are so much greater then me in so many ways.... then...i remember making u disappointed at me..... then the sick convo we had once...hahax.... but the disappointing 1 kinda haunts me till now....i'm so srry to hav shown u that side of me.....<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />1mp3rf3t10n<br />The wonders of the night.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8674009704926423407-5129244189954094008?l=dis1smahhheart4u.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>this is wad i saidnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8674009704926423407.post-91481191934716741392009-05-31T03:24:00.000-07:002009-05-31T03:27:14.532-07:00woo whoo!!!!<br /><br />back to post.... haha....had pepper lunch 2dae.... nice.....<br /><br />was playing wif nunchuks... den go play Maximum Tune thing....haha...I SUCK....<br /><br />drummania 3 was ok??? but uncomparable to V6!!!!<br /><br />yawnz......<br /><br />waitin for bmx still....<br /><br />missing and waiting for her too.....<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />1mp3rf3t10n<br />Who would want a guy who gets into lots of trouble ON PURPOSE???<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8674009704926423407-9148119193471674139?l=dis1smahhheart4u.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>this is wad i saidnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8674009704926423407.post-63906800373320367302009-05-29T19:47:00.000-07:002009-05-30T07:05:34.143-07:00You're making choice to live like this,<br />And all of the noise,<br />I am silence.<br />We already know how it ends tonight,<br />You run in the dark through a firefight.<br />And I would explode just to save your life,<br />Yeah I would explode.<br /><br />Let me light up the sky,<br />Light it up for you.<br />Let me tell you why,<br />I would die for you.<br />Let me light up the sky.<br /><br />I can't find a wall to pin this to,<br />They're all coming down since I've found you.<br />I just wanna be where you are tonight.<br />I run in the dark looking for some light,<br />And how will we know if we just don't try,<br />We won't ever know.<br /><br />Let me light up the sky,<br />Light it up for you.<br />Let me tell you why,<br />I would die for you.<br /><br />Let me light up the sky,<br />Light it up for you.<br />Let me make this mine,<br />I'll ignite for you.<br /><br />Let me light up the sky,<br />Just for you tonight.<br />Let me help you fly,<br />Cause you won't have time.<br />To cover your eyes,<br />Get your disguise,<br />They won't ask you why,<br />They just watch you die.<br /><br />And it's still so hard to be who you are,<br />So you play this part,<br />And the show goes on.<br />But you've come this far with a broken heart,<br />Yeah you've come this far,<br />And you're broken.<br /><br />Let me light up the sky,<br />Light it up for you.<br />Let me tell you why,<br />I would die for you.<br />Let me light up the sky,<br />(Let me light up the sky)<br />Light it up for you.<br />(Light it up fot you)<br />Let me make this mine,<br />(Let me make this mine)<br />I'll ignite for you,<br />(I'll ignite for you)<br /><br />Let me light up the sky,<br />Light it up for you.<br />Let me tell you why,<br />I would die for you.<br /><br />And it's still so hard to be who you are,<br />But you've come this far with a broken heart.<br />And it's still so hard to be who you are,<br />But you've come this far and you're broken...<br /><br />Let me light up the sky,<br />Let me light up the sky.<br /><br /><br /><br />Credits to Yellowcard!!!<br />Love this song man.....<br />kinda into Yellowcard also<br /><br /><br />haha...Mom finally said she would buy BMX... I wonder wen its coming.... haha....<br /><br />den again....i gottta buy my own Bass alrdy....and i can't find a job.....<br /><br />sigh....<br /><br />I'm still missing her....<br />it seems like...she cant get off my mine....<br /><br />everytime,i'll go to her facebook...and remember how she looked like at that time in the pool.....<br />den...will come back to reality that she...could possibly no be mine..................<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />1mp3rf3t10n<br />Light up your sky.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8674009704926423407-6390680037332036730?l=dis1smahhheart4u.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>this is wad i saidnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8674009704926423407.post-65802288927634298202009-05-29T02:52:00.000-07:002009-05-29T02:59:06.975-07:00haha!!! LOOKS LIKE EVERYONE'S BOOKED THIS HOLIDAY.... guess i'm the oni one not....LAST SPEND THE TIME SPAMMIN THE ARCADE!!!!<br /><br />but....then again....i quietly tell myself sumtins...<br /><br />all that i failed to do....can i really find the strength to do it all better...or i'm i juz gonna sit here and be oblivious to it.....<br /><br />i dunno.....<br /><br />and i juz said one of my tinkings to sis bout her....i wonder if its true....<br /><br />but still...the difference is that you are really kind and friendly....<br /><br />i miss that cup of drink.....it quench my thirst alot....<br /><br />*sigh*<br /><br />look at the bright side...<br />But....its all dark....<br /><br /><br />i 4gt to say....<br />2 trys left..... self reminder.....<br /><br /><br /><br /><br />1mp3rf3t10n<br />Is this heaven turned hell? Or is it me? Everyone's well off. So I guess its heaven.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8674009704926423407-6580228892763429820?l=dis1smahhheart4u.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>this is wad i saidnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8674009704926423407.post-74544789791738009472009-05-26T03:49:00.000-07:002009-05-26T06:47:54.161-07:00i dunnoe hu i can cheer this msg up wif...but it sure wont be me....<br /><br />i've failed 4 out of 6 subs.... currently...<br /><br />Amaths<br />Emaths<br />SS<br />History<br /><br />and the biggest let down is my maths.....i'm suppose to hav pass them at least....<br /><br />the biggest failure in life should be me...<br /><br />i failed in academics..<br />failed as a brother...<br />failed to get her...<br />failed to understand my surroundings....<br />failed to be understanding to those around me....<br /><br />i should have been gone so that everyone wont be dragged by me....<br />its....juz that... failure is so big this time....i cant ignore it....<br /><br /><br />i hate this life.... i hate all that i'm going through...<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />1mp3rf3t10n<br />Biggest failure.<br />Silent chuckle. Silent tears. Silent cries. Silent death. Silence.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8674009704926423407-7454478979173800947?l=dis1smahhheart4u.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>this is wad i saidnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8674009704926423407.post-39449076374986811672009-05-25T07:49:00.000-07:002009-05-25T07:55:24.764-07:007884...you noe sth???<br /><br />u are the prettiest gal i've ever seen hu has a bang.....ur face suits it alot....<br /><br />and everytime we chat....its like i lost a good fren once....and found her again..... though we've met 3 times in total....<br /><br />everytime i stress....i'll tink bout u....and worry u more...den stress myself out......its sorta like a distraction...i thank u for it.....<br /><br />i laugh silently....wen i read our previous MSN conversations....but am weeping...knowing that u are difficult to get....but also knowing that what a kind gal u are....though tempermental at times....<br /><br />its becoz of all this small bundles of joy....u gave me.....and... its y......<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />1mp3rf3t10n<br />I've fallen head over heels,high over low for you. 7884 (won't put your name,till i can call you mine)<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8674009704926423407-3944907637498681167?l=dis1smahhheart4u.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>this is wad i saidnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8674009704926423407.post-38666431057359110272009-05-22T06:02:00.000-07:002009-05-22T06:06:17.039-07:00I'm nvr buying Next.... THE TASTE SUCKS!!!!!<br /><br />haha... oni 1 person will noe... and i'll like to thx her for giving it to me!!!!<br /><br />i was comparing pics of you....wondering whether if u look better wif or without specs.... so i've come up wif an ans....<br /><br />you look best when you are simple dressed... like a nice tee wif shorts....den ur eyes giv off a nice look....<br /><br />ur specs make u look complicated....mature.....so wear it when u are preparing for formal things....<br /><br /><br />HAHA....i'm not cramming ur style....lets juz say, i prefer it like that...haha!!!!<br /><br />sooooooooo bored.....CAN I DIE AND LIVE AGAIN?... if yes....i wanna die now......<br /><br />i wanna try everything in this world......good and bad....but mostly bad.....<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />1mp3rf3t10n<br />Playing with fire teaches me that fire is hot.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8674009704926423407-3866643105735911027?l=dis1smahhheart4u.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>this is wad i saidnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8674009704926423407.post-75690985160179734342009-05-21T01:34:00.000-07:002009-05-21T01:37:06.027-07:00now that i'm both sick and love sick....i'm not that comfortable.....haha...<br /><br />but....den there's so many that i worry bout....<br /><br />i wrry bout this small sister.....hu is having a good time...but worrying about her other frenz....<br /><br />i wrry bout this gal....hu is not going through a good life....that she is putting a nice front for me not to worry......i would feel alot better if u told me ur troubles....<br /><br />AND LASTLY.....MY MYE.....haha<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />1mp3rf3t10n<br />Jay, you are the bird that flies free.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8674009704926423407-7569098516017973434?l=dis1smahhheart4u.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>this is wad i saidnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8674009704926423407.post-25893713394149836212009-05-16T01:36:00.001-07:002009-05-16T04:57:31.149-07:00actually, i'm wondering hu comes to this stupid blog....so those hu come, plz do tag....<br /><br /><br />i cant get her out.... its official.... she keeps appearing in my dreams....for a week....<br /><br /><br />i was wondering....hu's gonna fall for a guy...hu smokes,drinks,had *ahem* all before 18 and plays wif stuff that many detest......i dunno.....i juz wish it would be u....<br /><br /><br /><br />1mp3rf3t10n<br />Short post. Forgive me.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8674009704926423407-2589371339414983621?l=dis1smahhheart4u.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>this is wad i saidnoreply@blogger.com0