4/19/13
Killing oneself is cowardly..
But with what's done,
Is it possible to repay without give up a life...?
Many have said not to,
But when a reason is asked...
None could give one to a topic related.
Living for others?
That person no longer exist.
The existence of that one would just burden many.
So give a better reason.
As to not pull the trigger.
To not kick the bucket.
Cause honestly...
I cant even live for myself...
posted at 4/19/2013
I pray hope... No one ever sees this...
Cause this post is not pretty...
Tsk....the guy couldn't change...
And the shit you've caused...
Why... You screwed over enough lives...
Why another...?
I didnt mean to...honestly....
I really just didnt...
I'm trying to make it all up to those...
I really am trying...
I... Really did...
To turn to be someone more...obedient...
More thoughtful...more... Reasoned....
But i always end up screwing over...
Its not whats wrong with them.
Its what's wrong with me...
You know those words are true...
Yet...while working on your faults...
You somehow manage to just make more...
You cant stand those words...
You shut your ears...
You tried to keep walking forward...
Slowly mending those lives you've broken....
Poking around... Trying to help....
It hurts to hear those words...
'You did nothing to improve'
You know its true to an extend.
You know its not as well...
It just doesnt sit well with you...
And you crumble always to those words....
Slowly picking yourself up...
Having made a slight aim at something so as to have a goal...
Cause you don't love this person you are...
Even if others dont wish it...
You wish he'll die someday...
So as to stop burdening everyone close around...
Mistakes..same old ones...
You really dun want to make them again...
But still... You did...
.....you fucked up...
And this time again...
Its not just you....
The rain washes that tear soaked face.
But it can never wash the blade clean.
That blade you hold in you...
By yourself....
Slowly turning it
1mp3rf3t10n
A man who can't love himself, will never be loved.
posted at 4/19/2013