11/25/12
It'll be the last time I cry....
I'll keep on walking...
My world is still unchanged...
Rain..;.Thunder....
But this is home...
Home for the dark creatures...
It's a place I call home...
Cause no one seems me....
Only when I invite them into my world...
Would they hear the howls of gales....
With you gone...
My shelter is no more...
But the rain has come to collect me...
So I will continue in this rain...
till my weary knees were to tear...
But if I do become a creature of the night...
do not hate me for what i'll be...
You saw... You felt...
Do not hate yourself for it...
Smile... As how you have...
Now and on...
1mp3rf3t10n
Tear's in a hurricane.
posted at 11/25/2012
11/19/12
What are you doing Joseph Lee...?
What's happening to you, 1mp3rf3t10n?
Why....?
Why are you so pissed at your life?
I thought you had fun?
I thought you can find joy in everything?
What happened?
Why do you want so many bad things to happen to you by your hand?
Tell me what's your problem?
Why won't you voice out your fears to someone...?
Your pain... Hasn't been understood by anyone but yourself...
You can't expect anyone to know this pain you carry....
But you need to change...
Your biggest fear has always been changing and not being noticed for the change...
Please...Dun let it hinder you anymore....
You're crying...?
Why?
For your faults?
For your wrongs?
For everything you did?
For your pathetic life you carry?
You're being stupid...
You're being dumb....
Please stop looking back....
Please look forward...
Find your motivation...
Find your strengths....
Look for something to hold on...
Stand up firm for yourself...
Why do you despise yourself?
You kept telling others not to..
Why wont you listen to advice you gave to others...
But can the devil look into the light but not burn?
Can fire touch water and not be doused?
Can you....do all that you question yourself?
1mp3rf3t10n
Why can't I smile genuinely again...?
posted at 11/19/2012
11/17/12
老爸，
我的华语还是没进步。
所以能看到这个最后一句的话，请你多多原谅你这个栏儿子
哈哈哈，虽然字是签了，老爸还是老爸。
行李就是行李，这是不能改变。
你虽然在我这生命中没有很多影像，我却要和你说。
我和你是一样的，有困难就跑。
如果能再坐在一起，我是有很多东西想和你谈。
对于家，我还是会认你是我爸。
我是有感受到你的爱。
可惜的是你不能看到我进兵的那一天。
不能看见我娶老婆的那一日。
吃团圆饭，得那几天少了一个人。
男人对男人说一声，我真的不想像你。
但我觉得这真是很难。
能够再和你聊天，我就觉得够了。
过了这么多年，我却还是会想起你。
你自己说了不要我们，我说你一回来就自少要和我交代一声。
因为我说了，我们俩是一样的，没勇气的男人。
1mp3rf3t10n
老爸还会是老爸，这是不会改的
posted at 11/17/2012
11/16/12
They say if you really loved a person, you'll even go to the extend of letting her go for her happiness, even if it does not lie with you...
Such a humble move...I was once so sure that I could do it....
Now that I've done it...It just keeps coming back to bite me....
Cause all those memories we had just triggers all so easily...
You've become a part of my life...to such an extend that you affect me subconsciously already....
My memory lanes .... They just are too common around....
Places...where I have to go often....
Places where its meaning just seems so insignificant....
There are memory lanes like Boon Lay and Aljunid...
Yet some small ones like Kovan and Yishun....
Some can be as big as Bedok.
Some can be as simple as the inside of a car....
Some... Even some can be Orchard and City Hall....
I remember all those mini details...
I remember all those large pictures....
I remember all those pain and struggle....
I remember all those laughter and joy....
But now....
You've found another...
So I'm only left with the memories....
The question has always been on my head...
Whose fault was it...?
Someone has to be a bad guy right...?
You said you'll accompany till then...
I said I'll hold you back even if you didn't liked to....
So who didn't keep his/her promise...?
Who didn't do what they wished to do....
I've decided to let it be me...
Me... Who didn't have the strength to hold you...
Me... Who didn't have the courage to fight for you....
Me... Who gave up all so easily....
Me... Who's decided to end it....
Me... To slack my grip on you...When you pleaded me...To hold on tighter...
Because its only then I can answer the question...
As to why I'm crying right now...
As to why I'm feeling so bad right now...
As to how I've hurt myself...
As to how I've let you down....
So if you're reading this...
Please tell yourself that it is not your fault...
And that the rain just wont stop...
But you were once a rainbow, a sunshine...
Who could have just been the source....
Live on happier with him...
Less the mistakes you will make...
Double the smiles you've to give...
Half the frowns you'll have to take...
Live life with him to both your fullest...
Make every single moment count...
Let nothing hold you or make you look back...
Lest you lose sight of what is there....
Give it your best...
Let him do the rest...
It'll take 2 to clap...
Yet only 1 to slap....
There was once an ImperfectAngel....
Now...It's just 1mp3rf3t10n
He's brought back down to a mortal...
For he's not longer a hero....
1mp3rf3t10n
My words, for you future
posted at 11/16/2012
11/10/12
I'm surprised to see you even coming here....
hahaha....
Its about time let go of our past...
i know....
But...
You may have no idea how much those memories mean to me....
You have no idea how much every moment we've spent together is cherished by me....
Maybe its too late...
but...
You brought a change to my life...
be it positive or negative....
Maybe I'll never learn to move on from a heart break...
But at least i know i'm holding on to something I love...
Be it memories as simple as sending you to work everyday...seeing you as i went home every night....
Or memories as extravagant as going to JBP or USS.....
Its all memories i cherished before... now... and later...
1mp3rf3t10n
An angel of water has brought a rainbow to a devil's life, yet its that same angel that has struck the devil down
posted at 11/10/2012
11/4/12
I think I need to just say this to somewhere...and pray hope a reply will come running back to me...
I... I really can't forget about her...can I?
She used to laugh to much...
She's such a cry baby...
She's got a sharp tongue...
She cares so much about me....
So how can I forget a lady such as her?
She's brought me alot of joy to my life....
She has accepted what I am...
And yet... Its all back to my fault...
Sigh....
I wish to be stronger...
I really wish to be the man she wanted...
Some how I just can't.....
Sometimes I'm mad at her...
Cause I feel that she's not caring enough....
Sometimes I'm so glad I have her...
She's just there whenever I needed her....
Thinking back to all those memories I had...
Our first meeting at that station...
My first time stepping into her house...
My first time going to her school to fetch her....
My first time spending so much money on a girl....
My first time watching a movie alone with a girl...
My first time having a girl support me for my sport...
I wont forget those moments....
Where you just surprised me with a new wallet...
Where you just surprised me with a visit into my paintball field...
Where you kept saying 'Kaya Bun'
Where you cried over a maths test...
Where we sat at the beach just enjoying that sea breeze....
You helped my through so much...
I just want to have everything back......
Cause it's dark from here on....
My very first sunshine in my rainy life....
1mp3rf3t10n
She was the perfect girl....
posted at 11/04/2012