8/20/12
Its been so long since I came back to you...
I can't really say I'm thrilled to be typing here again...
Cause it'll mean there's some saddness in my life again....
Sigh...
And this time... I've got prospects of losing all I hold dear....
I'll lose my family....
For I've failed them...
I truly do not feel that I ought to drag them down cause of what I did....
I'll lose my precious girl...
She's stood by me all these times....
I love her...
For all she is and has done....
But it's selfish of me... To keep being a burden....
I'll lose my faith...
I've no longer known what I want to do anymore....
I've lost all meaning....
I live now for my family and girl.
My friends are important...
But I'm sorry.... I can't live for you guys...
I just don't have that much faith....in myself....
So much so.. that you guys can't cover it for me....
You guys did well... i appreciate....
This life i screwed up...
Its by my own actions.....
By my own thinking....
So i really thank you guys for standing by me....
And for my dearest....
You did so well for us....
You struggled through all the problems i had...when we were together...
My probation... Amander.... All sorts of troubles....
You didn't question...
You didn't complain....
You were just that great....
So I love you...
I'm sorry we lost our first born....
We may have been happy together legally...
We may have not....
I am willing to sacrifice myself in anyway...
I finally understood your fears...
I finally understood where you stood...
I'm afraid I'm just too late....
I've found the reason why my world has been raining....
Cause...
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No one can see my tears because of the rain....
posted at 8/20/2012