10/25/09
why....
why...
WHY AM I STILL THE SAME?!
damn it...
i wanna beat myself up soo much.....
i'm freaking....RETARDED!!!!!
stupid...
moronic...
idiotic...
pathetic....
1mp3rf3t10n
Wanna die.
posted at 10/25/2009
10/18/09
......zzz......
i'm hoping dar wouldn't see this.....
i nid to type this out.....
ok....this morning....i was thinking about the rings still attached to my wallet....
and then....i was wondering...if dar saw the rings one day we go out....and ask me to throw into the sea....
WOULD I DO IT?!...i'm still figuring out the question.....
er....this is not to say that i dun love her...
I'M LOVING WANYING FOREVER FROM NOW ON AND ON!!!! NO DOUBTS NO SECOND THOUGHTS!!!!!
haha....but anyways...i'm missing her lots....sigh....
1mp3rf3t10n
What's in my mind now? Her...or Her?
posted at 10/18/2009
10/17/09
whheee....
lalala~~~
haha... i made a new combine blog....with someone....
so announce it here first....
anyways....
this blog would still be here....so ppl following this blog......its still surviving...DUN WRRY!!!!
XD
1mp3rf3t10n
Another new episode.
posted at 10/17/2009
10/15/09
signaling: as of 2dae...Joseph Lee is freed from sec3 exams....
bt...he's still hell as worried....
mid year was done fucking badly.... so i MAY not be promoted...i hoping against many odds...
and also.... hav been up to do the box...so yea...its only spray painted finish..... freak....why must she go overseas.... it makes me wanna procrastinate more.....
sigh..... now....i'm wondering about my bleak future.... i'm wondering wat's gonna happen from here on.... wat's gonna happen once this is over....
and also....i've been tinking more of u....
i realised that during exams....i had to take out my wallet so i can stop thinking bout u....(first few papers i didn't do so...and u keep popping up...so couldnt concentrate....dun apologise... not ur fault...its mine that i cant get over you....that's if u see this post.....)
also....on trips back home... i tink how much i've changed...
suddenly, i've gotten a specs fetish...and its weird....i USED to hate girl's hu wear specs...now....im juz loving them....
maybe in love...senses do change....
so since i've been tinking of u.... i kept wondering to ur blog....hoping that u updated...but yea...i din...
and 2dae? i decided to pop in to ur qt....
and...
i realised...that u hurt soo much.....and that u are saying that lucifer's hurting u alot....
maybe its true..... maybe i shouldnt approach u anymore...
if its me that's causing the hurt...im srry.... if u ever think that lucifer's hurting u....i'm srry....
whatever happens....i dun wan anything bad to happen to u....
ur happiness has been made 1st priority to me....no matter wat.....
even if it means having to let go for life.....
1mp3rf3t10n
I'm back, but might be gone.
posted at 10/15/2009
10/7/09
dunno how...dunno why....
but i'm hooked on Jazz now....the deep sound of a sax.....the soothing melody....
well...some pplz juz mistake jazz as a emo song....but heys...its real relaxing.....
haha....so yea....hooked on Jazz...Still loving Pop of all kinds and yea....
and yea...still loving you.....
i dun tink i'll ever giv you up....until you got your prince charming......that's all i'll say....coz...what i feel...it can nvr be put in words....
1mp3rf3t10n
Jazz.
posted at 10/07/2009
10/3/09
ITS OFFICIAL...
I'M RUNNING LOW ON IDEAS FOR MY TITLES!!!!!!
hahaha
randomness ftw....
hehehe.....
i still haven't start on the box....
damn....i really nid a test run first.....
i want this to be the best gift i can make....
sigh....
but i nid spray paint....
and i'm low on cash.....
ahhh......
fishing line...where are you....
omg.....my compo is not done.....
ARGHH!!!!!!!
update at 11.06pm
Macdonals was saddup....
1mp3rf3t10n
THE BOX!!!!!
posted at 10/03/2009
10/2/09
LOL...
so another mini drama has started between 2 you-know-who...(david....its not the One Who Should Not Be Smelled)
zzz.....and one is in a sickbed.... sniffing away wif flu AND tears...
then it comes back to me....
was this how it was like for my previous relationships????
sigh.... Remorse? yea....loads....
so that's why i'm gonna make sure... the next one...would be the one i TRULY love...and hold her dear...
yawnz....
so lets see....study....study....
OH YEA... EXAMS AT 7/10/09
End at 15/10/09....
so yea.... actually, some how...i suddenly got this big BIG urge to study like crazy....
and actually....
i'm fearing i might hav to retain.....
FEARING till it can....scare me VERY badly.....
if i retain....then yea...i would go nuts.....
and maybe....i'll really blame all those around me.....
but ultimately...its my responsibility...
coz i lazed around tooo much.....
reminder...DUN BLAME OTHERS FOR THIS MATTER....
actually....i've TRIED not to blame others OUTWARDLY...
till they push me to breaking point....
or i'm juz not in the mood.....
my future somehow seems...bleak....
1mp3rf3t10n
Its a stressful life for students these days. And even worse for their parents.
Ignorance is truly bliss.
posted at 10/02/2009