you know..... i am a really troubled boy.... juz looking for a way...to escape the reality or the pain from this hellish world....from this lonely place that i tink only i live....
and 2dae....i think i tasted heaven that was on earth.....
i was blinded.... by jealousy...hate....and above all.... ignorance....
i was jealous of all hu has a friend....a true friend somehow he/she can trust..... but i realised...the ppl i can trust is juz by my side....Nicholas,Syafiq,Scott,Rytha,Caroline,Evangeline and lastly,Ruth.
why do i put Ruth the last? her qt....
she might not realise it....but her qt let me hav peace....her qt tells me what really can help.... and maybe....i should start my own....but for now....i'll juz learn from her....
always everyday, my first few webs are....
Facebook then Youtube then my blog then her blog..and lastly, her qt blog.....
Ruth, i owe alot to you.... i dunno if you realise it anot....but heys....for all these you've done unknowingly, you deserve to be rewarded...by both me and God.....
You've kept your faith, and this faith brought on to enlightenment for me....
maybe enlightenment is a big word....but heys, it works for me.....
i dunno what God's gift is gonna be....but i wish he'll protect you.... from all that is evil and impure...you truly deserve such protection with all that you hav done.....
my gift? it'll come in a form of a box....haha....i let your imagination run wild as you wonder wat is it....in time...it'll come.....
i dunno why i'm so protected....what hav i done....do this such a gift from God? i question myself day and night....
maybe, He truly is a person who forgives one and all.... no discrimination from him at all....Fairness....
i noe there is that glimer of hope, that small chance that He has given me to change....
its just me, i'm afraid to change....i've always been afraid to....admit my deepest wrongs.....
i nid strength.....
if i cant get the strength, let me be corrupt...and let me be brought to hell.....
i'll do what i can to help those hu ask....
but i dun tink, i deserve any good.....
i've failed to change and to admit my wrongs.....
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Ruth, I thank you for all that you've done. I don't think I can stop thanking you. (Familar?)