.... heys.... this post is gonna be hell emo....so to those hu wans to like....escape? well....clicky the crossy... if not....well....emo is pretty a strong word in this post....
so lets start of.... i could hav easily committed suicide..... coz of all tat i'm going through....
rytha...i dun like to do wat u keep asking me to do... i noe i screwed ur love life up...i'm doing all these for u...as repayment...but...its not all the time i can fulfil them....its juz hell difficult... my contacts might be high...but everyone juz treats me as a pet dog.... even calling me tat.... i dun noe y... i juz wanna help ppl... but....yea...so dun keep coming to me.... i may not help tat much...and dun complain if i din fulfill it... i've always said 'to my best'....my best doesn't mean 100% to ur plan....
and also... the reason i've been unsuccessful in my love life...is coz...i'm concentrating on urs...and u wont let me go...in a way meaning tat u wan me to like....juz overlook everything... i cant do tat all the time....i've got my life... scott and syafiq would say 'why bother helping her?' i say its for my sis...but in my heart...the same question goes on and on....you'll juz complain bout ur life...saying ur life is all so bad cause u cant meet him.... BE THANKFUL YOUR MEETINGS AREN'T CONFINED TO JUZ 4 DAYS.... u saying tat juz makes it worse.....
i dunno....
my life's all screwed up
Sch Life [x]
love life [x]
friendships [x]
personal life [x]
cca life [x]
after life [x]
that's how screwed up my life is....
i noe i'm hell juz a waste of space in this world... i noe i'm worthless... i noe i'm juz.... hell stupid...and crazy...and too imperfect....and cant do anything right... i noe all tat.... but....nvm....i guess u guys juz tink tat i...am a happy go lucky boy... hu smiles at all tat is said to him....tinks tat words spoken to him is a joke.....
i'm screwed up coz i broke all under 18 laws... i dun care if the police catches me for this... like hell i would.... y would i anyway...
i'm screwed up in sch coz everyone tinks...i'm juz a tissue paper...used and thrown... like all my friends....except syafiq.....
i'm screwed up coz i cant even get any (ANY) of the girls tat i like....
i'm screwed up coz my personal time has been taken from me....
i'm screwed up...coz my cca tinks i'm juz takin everything wrongly...and aggressive while at tat....and tat i wont change my tinking....
i'm screwed up...coz i'm half demon and juz playing around too much with the will of Him....
i dun giv shit.... i could hav easily jumped ever since Ms Choy said i'm juz a worthless person... 'What should we do with this kind of people?!' hell.... kill them all... i'm more then willing to die.... but i wont let it be taken easily... i still hav someone i love...too much.... and still hav yet to be with her....
but should she ever be with some other guy... heh... i juz sign the devil's pact...and make myself scarce from this world so tat i'll nvr bother/interfere/destroy/irritate/kill/take away the time of someone's life....
and ruth...should you ever read this...thank you...for keeping me alive...and all...
dun worry bout me....i've always been alone... this is juz a short time period....
i promised i'll still smile..din i?
^^
i may sound foolish waiting....but i still will.....
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I know, the world wants rid of me. Who welcomes the a good-for-nothing person anyways.