hm.... reflecting on my life... wondering...whether are things brought upon by myself (dun comment bout this sentence.... i noe eng fail...)
so lets start wif a small ting first....
erm.... sch....
well.. i guess i really did screw up my sch life... wif my class and all.... sigh.... maybe.... so maybe i'll hav to solo this whole sch life out....
then my frenz...
i'm putting you guys above everything... EVERYTHING.... dun disappoint me... i may seem like i'm kping you (ok...maybe i am at david during scouts...hell srry... but yea.... i dun like to make my bros wait... i'll do the same wen ur the waiter... )
then rytha...
ok... i agree then.... i did cause all this troubles to u....and i'm making it up... for everything.... but its to my limits.... i'm hell srry.... if wat i cant do...leads to a hell big disappointment....
oh... and something to tell u.... wen i'm out wif my mom... dun call me...unless really really REALLY urgent... if there are awkward silences during our convo on the phone.... i'm wif my mom.... but if u're admitted to the hospital or sth... CALL AND INFORM IMMEDIATELY.....
if u go according to this... my mom's impression on you might (might) jux change....
loving ruth is sth i definitely got myself into... and its really nice.... cox... being able to believe in that ting known as love... i've fallen out of that tinking b4...and hell...does it feel extremely lonely... and depressed..... actually...i went emo for a while cox of it.... so hell yea.... i'm really really thankful to u....
and montfort knights... actually... david.... erm... i dunno how to put it.... but... i kinda feel abit...disappointed... i noe i aint in the position to say this...i dunno the sop of ur scouts... but.... i feel...(my opinion....) tat....i aint the only one hu's all power hungry... and actually... i believe that....alot of the sec 3s.... tink tat jux becoz of rank.... they can do however they like....
i hope to change this tinking.... the reason i feel like this, is coz tat they keep sayin... that juz coz i noe rank.. they can command me around....
i noe i'm hell soft and all.... i'll toughen up.... but juz becoz i din attend pltc.... juz becoz i'm stuck not being able to be promoted.... they hav the rights to boss me around... i dun tink so....
i dun really wish to see montfort knights... being proud becoz of the badges they wear... i wan them to be proud... of the frenz they hav.... of the bonds the share...
i truly believe... scouts is not all bout discipline.. not about pioneering... not about NPC.. not bout ranks... scouts is about.. Unity... Strength in Unity....
Baden Powell stated tat scouts hav no ranks... we are all one and same.... but there are leaders... however... u must come down...and be wif the lower people... so u can actually rule them well... as they will know tat YOU noe how they feel if u giv them the job....
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