6/30/09
i've finally found the reasons for my nice screwed up life....
1. I'm a very worrisome person. i worry about my frenz the most.... all whom are fighting a fight with godly entities...or trying to tame them... and the 2 frenz whom hav bad financial crisis now in their families.....
2. You.. are all i tink about in this period.... the reasons why i'm still living... the reasons y i keep fighting... maybe... all i nid.... is the length of a song to tell you all that i wish to....
all these... i dun mind... for... you guys... are the everything of me... the family, friends that smile with me, for me for life....
wondering if you ever read this web
1mp3rf3t10n
All I wish now, is to hold your hand up high, declaring the love of my life.
posted at 6/30/2009
6/28/09
ok... here to blog before sch.. currently on the trip to sch... 88.......
short post
HERE'S TO A GOOD 2ND HALF OF SCH!!!!!!!
LOL....>w<
1mp3rf3t10n
Sigh. School.
posted at 6/28/2009
6/26/09
time has once again flew past...
to say the truth... there were only a few memorable glances in this holiday.... i hope the dec holi would be better....
so here i'm typing... so you guys should know i din meet her.... haha... there's always another time....
i always tell my frenz to smile.. but can i truly ever smile again????
the dark side of life seems to creep as fast as possible... to drag you down... so you can live your life in fear and misery.... how do we light up the wick of a candle wen the candle can't be seen in its full form...
1mp3rf3t10n
Ever stronger.
posted at 6/26/2009
6/25/09
great!!! one down one to go....
thx bro... u did relieve a few stress of my back....
now nid hope and pray she's alrite after her camp.... i can oni say that a 10% chance of her going out with me tml....
i'm not gonna do my work...i noe how things would work for me.... there's actually 2 things that will happen:
1.I finish my work. I can go out. But she won't meet me.
2.I didn't finish my work. I can't go out. She is willing to meet me.
that's how things will work out.....
i added songs to my blog... hope u guys like it.....
1mp3rf3t10n
It's 10% luck,20% skill, 15% concentrated power of will. 5% pleasure , 50% pain and a 100% reason to remember the name.
posted at 6/25/2009
6/22/09
What's the boredom of bored? Dunno...me either.... but that's how bored i am... i'm sooo bored... i dunno whether its boredom or bored....
yawnz....mapling this few days... nth better to do.....
and kept flapping through her facebook... so that i can always remember that smile on her face.....
alrdy missing her...... by alot......
then.... wondering if sat can find her again... juz hope that she's not too tired after camp.....
yea....she's at camp now.....
1mp3rf3t10n
How and what's the best way to propose?
posted at 6/22/2009
6/20/09
2dae was great... was having a great time wif her.... though it was all work... but spending time wif her was worth it....
so we were moving chairs and stuff.... i get to see her once more... (got to hug her back too)
that's all for 2dae... i will speak more next time....
1mp3rf3t10n
If I was ever asked the question:'Who's life is much more precious to you?', I would say hers as she went through quite some rough times. So I want to help her have a greater time in this world.
posted at 6/20/2009
6/19/09
whoo hoo!!!!!
Weds was cool..... i went to pick dry grass wif my juniors.... then Christopher came along...soo after picking.... we (juniors and syafiq and his juniors) went his hse.... we played many things... but on xbox 360... guitar hero, halo 3 and more...... WE ROCKED.... haha....played songs like Misery Business, What I've Done and many more......i was on the bass... can nvr sing.... chris on guitar (his riffs are best!!!) syafiq's on drums.....
then..... 2dae... i had pariss(for those hu don't noe.. its this really classy place for seafood which is ok.....) the food was soo soo.... i would say that the sashimi wasn't really well prepared but the sashimo was hell go...very well done.... i wont really recomend this restruant to those hu can't take seafood..... but those hu really REALLY like seafood... it would be worth a try......
but... through out 2dae...
i worry for the 2 gals....
1mp3rf3t10n
Would you guys stop saying Wu Ding in front of me?! (Family. Blood)
posted at 6/19/2009
6/17/09
sometimes... i wonder if she's ever reading this.....
and then.. wen she doesn't talk.. i think 2 things in my mind....
1)She said that she won't talk to the guys she like....
2)Is she piled up by work AGAIN?
then if 2 is correct, i wonder if she's slping much these days.....
hope everything's alrite....
and next week... i hope it wont be cancelled.....
alone.... loneliness.....
1mp3rf3t10n
The odd one out.
posted at 6/17/2009
6/16/09
I laugh at you sis.... coz i knew right from the start wen u got nearer to justin that a sticky end is coming... and you got into it... now i'll help you out.... but u gotta noe by now.... fire is a hot thing to play with...
and yet... here i am... possess by 7 demons.... HAHA..... sanity is still in me....
well... she said she's gonna meet me nxt week... i gotta call a fren along.. so... MEI MEI.... you judge her bah.. then scott will judge... then syafiq...then sean.... then jie jie... OOPS!!!! I HOPE YOU DUN SEE THIS!!!!! but...den again.... i hope you wont mind......
yawnz.... was able to change my car's color 2dae.... from white to yellow.... and also got a new decal.... black fire... my aero set also changed to C (man... i hated B for the lights.... hell ugly) And the tires are now shiny silver..... MOST IMPORTANTLY.... I HIT THE 810 HP MARK!!!!! WHOOTS!!!! this means my 780hp tuning is now at D (that means normal drift... there's the DG which is a greater class of drifters....but hated it for the steering is never stable....) I love my new car.... i hope to get the aura and the neon lights soon... i wan both to be blue.... so its another 4km more and ALOT more dress up lvls...
1mp3rf3t10n
Your love for blue seems to have rubbed off on me. xD
posted at 6/16/2009
6/13/09
sigh.... so worried for soooo many things currently....
1. Amaths....
Ok...can't really say juz amaths but whole of academics..... they really are reproving by a whole lot..... (maybe some of u guys noe y... wont state here....maybe you guys don't....) sigh.... i specifically say amaths coz i'm gettin lost in a sea of numbers.....
2. LJ (short. man)
wont state name here. I'm be using he/she to address the person in mind..... He/she is gettin screwed up in life... and so i'm here worrying if he/she'll ever get out of it.... that night seeing him/her cry out made me pity him/her by alot...... he/she kinda cried very badly.... worst of all the 3 times i've seen.....
3. 7884 (blue jay)
haha... this one i tink my 'family' should noe the best lah... so wont explain..... xD
overall, i'm havin quite a good turn now... still nid help Mousedeer plan for friday's cooking... HOW YOU COOK VEGETABLES THROUGH OUTDOOR COOKING?!
1mp3rf3t10n
The world of mine is currently undergoing a storm of worries.
posted at 6/13/2009
6/11/09
hi all!!!
i changed my skin... The White Reaper.... i like him alot....
also....
i'm worried bout her... she aint feelin all that happy.....
short post....
1mp3rf3t10n
Life is full of worries.
posted at 6/11/2009
6/9/09
haix.... that stupid bet on sat....
let me explain... Montfort Knights hav gotten an invitation to Mayflower Campfire.... so Syafiq proposed this stupid bet....
as there are Guides being there.... the SEC 3s (only) are to race to get number, get date. Last to do so cleans the scout room for a whole mth.... haha....
but there is sth i want to make clear.....
though i'm asked to make a date with the gal, i wont stead wif her... for i'll wait for tat very gal hu changed my life quite for the best... the one hu sees the best in me.... i love you for doing that for me.....
actually.... i'm such a damned fuck up guy...hu would want to know me anyways.....
zzz.....I din go train my car 2dae.... so its stuck at 700hp now....
1mp3rf3t10n
I'll love you and only you.
posted at 6/09/2009
6/8/09
here's 2dae topic:
There's always hope for those you dont hav it....
but first off.... I HAD QUITE SOME FUN 2DAE AND YESTERDAY!!!! i slpt over at sherwin's hse...so we played 360 in the dark.... ownage of him to me in DOA4.... I LOST MY TOUCH!!! T_T and den talked and played cards wif him till 3 in the morning.... then 2dae was arcade-LAN-arcade..... my car has only gone up to 700hp but with lots of new wheels and a totally different colour...(but i din change it... yellow doesnt suit me.....xD) my hoops shooting went down......zzz
now.... on to HOPE....
i want everyone to noe... i really mean no harm in wat ever i do... i'm really sorry if i screwed up major.... and that i'm always here to help/guide/be there for them.... no matter what.... maybe if i can't be there in person.... but if u tell me the reason on y you are down or sad.... a call away is not that difficult.... i promise that to all now..... no matter when....
AND MOST IMPORTANTLY.... dun lose hope in what ever that there's no way a trouble/problem can't be solved.....
and lastly...and always.... a short part of the post dedicated to you (i'll always do this)
during shooting hoops in the arcade 2dae.... every score reminds me of you....and i always wonder if you can play basketball well.... wanna play wif you some day... now, its pool and basketball...i'll tink of more sports... and also... we (sherwin and I) talked alot bout you and *someone* (not telling) haha.....
I realised sth... you look really like one of the chinese stars.... i 4gt her name...
oh... i got a new (erm....poem thing?) thingy
Fallen Angel
Risen Demon
But all that I am
Is just a mere Human
1mp3rf3t10n
The nasty bird catcher, trying to catch the ever freed blue jay.
posted at 6/08/2009
6/5/09
2dae started off with Maximum Tune...
managed to hit the 680 hp mark....along wif my first (tail?) and new set of wheels...
also managed to defeat a 780hp car wif my 660 hp car.... AWESOME......haha.... i knew all i needed was a faster car.......
then the PMT.... fuck the adults....
then mom go ECP for fun....so we went for lunch at subway (the chicken terriyaki wrap sucked) then cycling and dinner was this korean BBQ thing....
first....cycling....
i wasted quite some energy cycling due to the fact that i was thinkin of you heavily.... and all i was thinkin was how we would spend our time at the beach 2gtr.... but then...i was wonderin wen that would be...and i sped off.... cryin silently in my heart....
then the korean BBQ ting....
Shiok.... alot of veggies though... but was nice....very fillin....
now i'm wondering if you accepted the $5 from sherwin..... i wish you would..... i hate owing gals money.....
1mp3rf3t10n
You occupied my mind, my thoughts, my heart, my soul.
posted at 6/05/2009
6/3/09
its nearly the end of the first week of holidays....
i aint enjoying myself.... but its glad to noe the rest of my frenz are.... with their steads or other frenz....
my first week of holidays...shows kinda bad future....
everyone's ignoring me.... i'm juz screwing their life up....
im juz a dog everyone kicks around....
i am juz a useless guy in this world.....unable to help anyone....or even cheer them up....
anyways....thx to all readers juz for reading.....really appreciated ^_^
1mp3rf3t10n
Why treasure life when it sucks anyway?
posted at 6/03/2009
6/2/09
i'm sooo messed up...
why am i getting dragged to things i dun wish to be in...den get blamed for being in there....
i kept wondering the purpose of me in this world.... to do stupid stuff and commit suicide coz of it later???
i wonder.... how am i gonna help ppl....yet...whoever i help, i'll juz hurt that person or another...
its sickening....
so i go to the arcade and play maximum tune.... now at 600 hp.... haha.... hope to get the neon lights soon....
and still... i tink of that blue bird... the one that's so brilliant in blue.... the one that always gets troubled by sth..... and the one whom seems to be so happy....
its so screwed up....
If you dun wan a person to die becoz you noe you'll be left alone....wont that be selfish?
1mp3rf3t10n
Screwed up.
posted at 6/02/2009